somethings wrong in my life but im not quite sure what
so ive cried myself to sleep for a few nights now. there is something missing kinda like john mayor says in his song... "somethins, missin, and i dont know what it is, no i dont know what it is"
so i sit here sick and dying on my day off from school. having to do my history portfolio, french project and everything else since im going to be at a basketball tournament this whole weekend.
so mere called me tuesday night and we talked and i cried and now she knows. enough of that ok no more talking about that.
random> WHOAAA AMBER IS THE COLOR OF YOUR ENERGY
but honestly im so confused and i dont understand why they dont call so i talked to them today n the convo was quite blAND. im kinda thinkin maybe i just should stop talkin to them alltogether. i dunno i have to many thoughts to write down at once i need a bagel with butter right now.
and not only that but at field hockey practice yesterday i was so frustrated with everything that i just started crying in the middle of it n ms budzik pulled me over because she said that she cared n if there was anything i needed to talk about i could always come to see her. yes the problem is field hockey i dont play and i dont see why im on varsity if im not playing why not put me on jv and let me be happy? uGHH
and then my knee hurts
so lets run over my problems ready go:
my knee, im sick, i cant breathe out one nostrol, my computer is so slow, ANA, i have no friends, i cant play field hockey, i fucked myself up so this weekend at my tournament where there will be LOTSA D1 BASKETBALL COACHES i wont be 100%, ANA, school is stressfull, i dont like walkin in the rain to gilman and 600 west...
confused.sad.lonely.
~dp