Grow up and get a life
so, i'm pretty sure that i only have like 2 really good friends, some people talk to me, but other ppl
i'm really getting sick how like everybody's drinking and getting high and God knows what else. you guys are fucking retards and i'm not even joking
you know what i don't even care i'm gonna tell u guys somethin, when my mom and dad got divorced and when my mom first found out and got the divorce papers, i was the only one home with her, and i remember walking through the door after school and seeing her sobbing between her knees, telling me that it was all my fucking fault, she showed me her wrist and she said that it was my fault - and she was drunk and high throughout the whole thing. i remember her telling me that she was gonna take a shower and i was scared to death that she was gonna pass out or break a piece of glass. yeah i knew a lot when i was 9 didn't i. i remember her singing:
Now maybe
did i mean to treat you bad
but i did it anyway
your friends are standing around
just to watch you crumble
as you fall onto the ground
But someday
your friends will stand beside
and watch you flying
flying oh so hi
just so you can't reach us
but you did it anyway
NOW MAYBE
DIDN'T MEAN TO TREAT YOU OH SO BAD
BUT I DID IT ANYWAY
i will never forget those lyrics. i remember standing out side hearing her sing that song and i waiting for 2 hours for my dad to get home.
and i swear i will never do anything like that ever. that's only one of the days in my fucking life so don't even ask if i'm having another bad day if i don't look all happy like i always do! i can't even believe i just told u that. and don't even fucking think that i'm making this up - that i "need attention" i want u guys to understand why.
i really hope that something fucking wrong goes on in your all lives so you can understand that you can't feel good just by smoking a joint or downing a beer or whatever the hell u guys drink. i think that u guys should start thinking more about school more than thinkng about the bag of weed ur gonna smoke when you get home. it's not cool at all and don't even think of talking to me about how you got wasted over the weekend. i swear to god. why is everybody getting so fucking stupid - do you not even realize what you guys are doing to your bodys.
and also, do you know your background, what your grandparents were like and their parents and so forth - you better hope that they weren't alcohaulics 'cause if they were then youre fucked!
whatever u guys don't care about what i say what do i know right - everybody talking behind my back - im getting so fucking sick of it!
why do i even care - why should i even care you guys can find out the hard way. you guys don't give a fuck about what i say at all! your just gonna say "what does he know?" i know a lot fucking more than you do that's for sure.
just, why is everyone so stupid
i've been arguing with myself for the last hour wondering if i should hit the "update journal" button or not
what the hell
i'm really getting sick how like everybody's drinking and getting high and God knows what else. you guys are fucking retards and i'm not even joking
you know what i don't even care i'm gonna tell u guys somethin, when my mom and dad got divorced and when my mom first found out and got the divorce papers, i was the only one home with her, and i remember walking through the door after school and seeing her sobbing between her knees, telling me that it was all my fucking fault, she showed me her wrist and she said that it was my fault - and she was drunk and high throughout the whole thing. i remember her telling me that she was gonna take a shower and i was scared to death that she was gonna pass out or break a piece of glass. yeah i knew a lot when i was 9 didn't i. i remember her singing:
Now maybe
did i mean to treat you bad
but i did it anyway
your friends are standing around
just to watch you crumble
as you fall onto the ground
But someday
your friends will stand beside
and watch you flying
flying oh so hi
just so you can't reach us
but you did it anyway
NOW MAYBE
DIDN'T MEAN TO TREAT YOU OH SO BAD
BUT I DID IT ANYWAY
i will never forget those lyrics. i remember standing out side hearing her sing that song and i waiting for 2 hours for my dad to get home.
and i swear i will never do anything like that ever. that's only one of the days in my fucking life so don't even ask if i'm having another bad day if i don't look all happy like i always do! i can't even believe i just told u that. and don't even fucking think that i'm making this up - that i "need attention" i want u guys to understand why.
i really hope that something fucking wrong goes on in your all lives so you can understand that you can't feel good just by smoking a joint or downing a beer or whatever the hell u guys drink. i think that u guys should start thinking more about school more than thinkng about the bag of weed ur gonna smoke when you get home. it's not cool at all and don't even think of talking to me about how you got wasted over the weekend. i swear to god. why is everybody getting so fucking stupid - do you not even realize what you guys are doing to your bodys.
and also, do you know your background, what your grandparents were like and their parents and so forth - you better hope that they weren't alcohaulics 'cause if they were then youre fucked!
whatever u guys don't care about what i say what do i know right - everybody talking behind my back - im getting so fucking sick of it!
why do i even care - why should i even care you guys can find out the hard way. you guys don't give a fuck about what i say at all! your just gonna say "what does he know?" i know a lot fucking more than you do that's for sure.
just, why is everyone so stupid
i've been arguing with myself for the last hour wondering if i should hit the "update journal" button or not
what the hell