disclaimer for my last post
it was bullshit. all bullshit. it was a fucking booty call, it wasnt real, he doesnt care. why do i let this happen? how could he let this happen? getting ur heart broken once isnt good enough, no, he has to tell me he misses me and to come over, and 2 days later be like umm yeah i really dont give a shit about u, im worse than all the rest of the guys. how how could anyone be so heartless. i want to yell at him but there are no words im just so hurt i can barely take it. i got the text at a bbq w/ my neighbors it was so hard not to just start crying right there. im shaking im actually shaking. i didnt know anyone could be that heartless. horny assholes i can take, i understand them i dont expect them to call me. but this is the absolute worst. he gave me hope, i was dying for something like that to happen, for a fuck it we got a month left lets make the most of it, and it seemed exactly like that. i dont ever ever want to fall in love again. ever this is too hard this hurts too much. i dont think he gets it i really dont. no one has ever hurt me this bad. i feel like i want to die.
its been like 20 minutes since i wrote that, he keeps texting me and making me feel worse. i dont want to date anymore. its too painful, maybe guys r on the right track w/ the whole just get laid and move on thing.
its been like 20 minutes since i wrote that, he keeps texting me and making me feel worse. i dont want to date anymore. its too painful, maybe guys r on the right track w/ the whole just get laid and move on thing.