my life heres whats going on
Okay for thoes who don't know, I leave for flordia with Hannah on the
23rd its exactally 9 days away, and I'm really excited! Jeremy and I
have been chatting like crazy, and we really connect, its great, I know
steve and I just broke up, but I can't help how right this feels. Steve
has been laying a guilt trip on me, and I'm sorry steve, bc I feel like
shit for what happened, but I honestly can't help the fact that I think
I've found someone who I think can make me happier, I love you steve,
that won't change, but if I give up on this gut feeling, I know I'd
regret it all my life. I honestly feel like god is pulling me towards
jeremy, he's involved in his church, which I really want to be, but
would also like from my significant other to do as well, and I feel
like
I can grow with jeremy. For some reason the relationship with steve had
stunted in growth. And I'm not here to bitch or complain about how
horrible my relationship with steve was, bc it wasn't bad at all, I
just
felt like I was missing something and I found it with jer and it was
instant. Okay, so umm flordia, yes, well we leave the 23rd in the
morning, and arrive at 4:30 in ft. Lauderdale and then I finally meet
the one who I've been calling my teddy bear, the one who makes me smile
and laugh like no other :: sigh :: this feeling trumps anything I've
felt ever! With a half smile on my face I say this, bc there is still
the steve factor. I hurt him, I didn't mean to, I really wanted to
protect him, but oh well too late. I always put others feelings before
my own, I can't do it in this case, which is next to impossible for me.
Okay this entry is no where near done, so yeah either pack your shit up
and move on, or sit down and continue to listen. Okay well I'm not for
sure what's going to happen in flordia, I know that jeremy has a really
sweet and romantic date planned out for the tropical gardens inclucing
star gazing, which I'm really looking forward to=) and yeah not to sure
what else is going on were staying a whole week! But I wish it was more
:: sigh :: if things go good, and things continue shitty around here,
ill move there, so much stress here, between steve and my parents, too
much stress. (Omg its raining I love rain storms) anyway so yeah we get
back the 29th if anyone needs to reach me call my cell 5169485 if you
don't know the area code, then you don't need to get ahold of me, lol!
I'm really looking forward to this, jeremy is going to let me tweeze
his
eyebrows and clean them up, hehe=) along with putting makeup on him, oh
wow this is gonna be fun it shows he trusts me and that's big. I'm
really excited to meet his family they seem nice so far,I talked to his
mom on the phone for a few minutes the other day, she has the sweetest
voice, and I can't wait to meet her! And his brother and father seem
cool too, haven't really gotten to talk to them, so yeah, and omg amber
his niece is the cutest thing ever, I'm really excited I get to see
her.
Jeremy has been telling eveyone about me, everyone knows everything
about me and they haven't met me yet, lol. Everyone at the hospital
where he works, and everyone at his church, all of his friends, and
family, I hope I don't freak out and get shy, its not happened
before,but this is a big thing. I'm counting the days and hours 9
days
exactally and ill be in the airport seeing him for the first time, 9
days and ill know if its there, 9 days and then it all begins =) I
think this is my longest entry ever but I could go on forever about
what
I adore about him. The sweetest most genuine guy ever, and big plus he
likes me, well actually he loves me but you get the idea. I <3 you
jer-teddy bear....... 9 days........
23rd its exactally 9 days away, and I'm really excited! Jeremy and I
have been chatting like crazy, and we really connect, its great, I know
steve and I just broke up, but I can't help how right this feels. Steve
has been laying a guilt trip on me, and I'm sorry steve, bc I feel like
shit for what happened, but I honestly can't help the fact that I think
I've found someone who I think can make me happier, I love you steve,
that won't change, but if I give up on this gut feeling, I know I'd
regret it all my life. I honestly feel like god is pulling me towards
jeremy, he's involved in his church, which I really want to be, but
would also like from my significant other to do as well, and I feel
like
I can grow with jeremy. For some reason the relationship with steve had
stunted in growth. And I'm not here to bitch or complain about how
horrible my relationship with steve was, bc it wasn't bad at all, I
just
felt like I was missing something and I found it with jer and it was
instant. Okay, so umm flordia, yes, well we leave the 23rd in the
morning, and arrive at 4:30 in ft. Lauderdale and then I finally meet
the one who I've been calling my teddy bear, the one who makes me smile
and laugh like no other :: sigh :: this feeling trumps anything I've
felt ever! With a half smile on my face I say this, bc there is still
the steve factor. I hurt him, I didn't mean to, I really wanted to
protect him, but oh well too late. I always put others feelings before
my own, I can't do it in this case, which is next to impossible for me.
Okay this entry is no where near done, so yeah either pack your shit up
and move on, or sit down and continue to listen. Okay well I'm not for
sure what's going to happen in flordia, I know that jeremy has a really
sweet and romantic date planned out for the tropical gardens inclucing
star gazing, which I'm really looking forward to=) and yeah not to sure
what else is going on were staying a whole week! But I wish it was more
:: sigh :: if things go good, and things continue shitty around here,
ill move there, so much stress here, between steve and my parents, too
much stress. (Omg its raining I love rain storms) anyway so yeah we get
back the 29th if anyone needs to reach me call my cell 5169485 if you
don't know the area code, then you don't need to get ahold of me, lol!
I'm really looking forward to this, jeremy is going to let me tweeze
his
eyebrows and clean them up, hehe=) along with putting makeup on him, oh
wow this is gonna be fun it shows he trusts me and that's big. I'm
really excited to meet his family they seem nice so far,I talked to his
mom on the phone for a few minutes the other day, she has the sweetest
voice, and I can't wait to meet her! And his brother and father seem
cool too, haven't really gotten to talk to them, so yeah, and omg amber
his niece is the cutest thing ever, I'm really excited I get to see
her.
Jeremy has been telling eveyone about me, everyone knows everything
about me and they haven't met me yet, lol. Everyone at the hospital
where he works, and everyone at his church, all of his friends, and
family, I hope I don't freak out and get shy, its not happened
before,but this is a big thing. I'm counting the days and hours 9
days
exactally and ill be in the airport seeing him for the first time, 9
days and ill know if its there, 9 days and then it all begins =) I
think this is my longest entry ever but I could go on forever about
what
I adore about him. The sweetest most genuine guy ever, and big plus he
likes me, well actually he loves me but you get the idea. I <3 you
jer-teddy bear....... 9 days........