Holding Hand and Hand
Title: Holding Hand and Hand
Author:nodoka06
Pairing: Yamada x Chinen
Summary: Love is never about finding the hand that perfectly fits yours. It's about finding that one person who is willing to hold hands no matter how unfit it may be.
Words: 3,856
A/N: Songfic obviously inspired from Tsunagu Te To Te.
The gentle stroke of a hand on his hair had awoken him. It was rather soothing, as the gentleness that surrounded his head make him feel safe. He usually doesn't like when someone dares to disturb him on his peaceful slumber, but if it is Him, if it is his hand, his soft hands, he would not mind. As long as that guy would always be on his side. That when he wakes up, he would be the first one - the only one - his eyes would settled upon.
The feeling when we hold our hand, the rhythm of the foot when we walk, too
Is like something no one can imitate, it became our very own style
"Ryo-chan", a soft call escaped from his lips, his eyes were slightly open. Just an enough opening to check if his prince was really there. He snuggled closer.
"Still sleepy, my princess?" he asked, as he kept on stroking the younger's hair. He cuddled him being like a big teddy bear of Yuri, kissing his forehead.
He shook his head slowly, "Let's just stay like this for a while, Romeo."
A chuckle. Seeing his boyfriend being so cute so early in the morning could have brighten his day already. He would not wish for anything, but him. Nothing but his Chinen Yuri.
"Alright, alright. We will stay like this. Anything my Juliet wishes, I-"
Chinen did a slight pinch on Yamada's arm, "Yuri da~, don't call me Juliet" a pout. "Only me can call you Romeo but I don't want to be called as Juliet. It makes me feel jealous of whoever Juliet is."
Yamada smiled. The way Chinen thinks is really different; his point of view is really different. Because there is only one Chinen Yuri, that's why he is. "Yuriet", he gave him a soft peck on his pouting lips, a sudden one. "If I'm your Romeo, then you're my Yuriet"
"That sounds stupid." He rolled his eyes on Yamada, but then he laughed. He remembered that it was actually his doing. That when they first performed their song Romeo and Juliet, he really was insanely jealous over that Juliet. He wants to be Yamada's little Juliet, but he doesn't want to be called with a name that isn't his, so he came up on combining his name with Juliet. "as stupid as Ryomeo."
"Ryomeo is really stupid, ne." he smiled weakly. It hit him. Chinen doesn't mean it that way. It was just one of the things his sharp tongue could say, but it's not on the other way around. "I'm stupid."
"Ryosuke, that's not what I meant." an apologetic look from Chinen; holding his cheek, warming it up with his small hand. "That's not it.", assurance.
But, the guilt was running all over him. Yamada was occupied by his guilt, conscience. "I know. But I ... am really stupid. I..."
A finger was placed on his lips softly, "Ssssh. Everyone makes a mistake." Chinen smiled sweetly, trying to give back the brightness on his lover's face. He let go of his cheeks for a moment but exchange it with a lovely kiss on those chubby cheeks. He placed his hand on the older's hand instead.
" I love you Ryosuke. How stupid you might be."
Occasionally you act like an adult more than me
Who and what to said,
became the things only we decided
Chinen wrapped his arm around Yamada whilst the latter did the same, wrapping his arm around the squirrel's waist. Their small frames perfectly fit each other, with Chinen's head resting upon his. Reassuring the buta that he didn't intend it, that calling him stupid doesn't have a deeper meaning - the hurtful truth.
"Yuri...", he muttered softly as he felt Chinen's embrace. Chinen is making him feel safe, though it should be the other way around. It should be him. Him, who is supposed to let him feel safe, not just to feel but to do really save him. Save him from this cruel world where people is trying to destroy the genuine love they share, trying to seperate them apart. "I... I... I'm sorry..." he plunged his head over the small chest, drenching it as he let his tears to flow down.
Chinen hugged him tighter as he know it could lessen the dolour his boyfriend is having, stroking his hair like his fingers were made for them and as rested his head over his, smelling the strawberry scent that's wafting on the older's hair. "You're such a crybaby, Ryosuke." he teased, letting a small laughter.
"I really am, Yuri..." he tried to form a smile as he doesnt want to look so fragile in front of his princess. "Gomen ne." he wiped his tears, pulling out a bit to touched the younger's cheek. "I should be the one protecting you." he said before pressing his lips on Chinen's.
Sweet. Pure. Sincere.
Time is flowing
We, who have spent many years without even get bored with it,
continues repeating our daily life
It has been four years - no, scratch that, almost five years when they discovered that they're both inlove with each other. Both have had their ups and downs, both have their own insecurities, selfishness...
Both do get jealous.
They could sometimes have their little fights. But lovers really do make fights, right? But those little fights never succeed on tearing them apart, thus, it makes them stronger. That when Chinen already has enough and had thought of giving up, Yamada didn't let him. Yes, he was dense not to see the pain on his boyfriend's eyes. Too stupid not to realize every doings he does to the other members could put a crack on the younger's delicate heart. That whenever he denies his boyfriend during interviews and whenever he ignores him during photoshoots and jacket shooting is like stabbing Chinen's little heart non-stop, leaving a scar on it.
Stupid boyfriend.
Stupid pig.
Chinen would curse him when those moments occur, still at the end, he'd never win over his feelings. His love - Yamada Ryosuke. I love you Yuri. Those words could make him feel better, maybe it couldn't heal the wounds on his heart completely, but it could miss the pain. Somehow.
Laughing
Chinen pulled out from the kiss first as his phone under his pillow vibrates. Yamada groaned on a sudden distraction with his brows all pitched up. The squirrel took his phone and read his message. Yabu-kun really knows how to ruin the moment.
"Just reminding us not to be late on our concert." he reported. "They know the consequence of pairing us on a room. Now get up and cook something." he ordered slightly pushing Yamada on the bed. He pulled the blanket up to his small chest and gave his lover a motivating smile, "Yuri wants omurice!"
"Fine fine." Yamada laughed cutely and kissed his little lover on his forehead. "You sounded like a pregnant woman."
getting angry,
Time for their concert. The whole arena, as usual is very crowded. And it's time to interact with the audiences. They're split into two groups. Yuto, Inoo, Daiki, Yabu and Chinen would be staying on the stage entertaining those in VIP seats while the remaining member, Hikaru, Keito, Yuya and Yamada would
run upstairs either to the 2nd or 3rd floor of the dome and would let the audience to ask question. The first lucky girl asked Hikaru what his best joke is, the second asked Keito if he could teach her English, the third one asked Yuya if he still remember the names of all the casts of Bakaleya, everyone howled in laugher when he couldn't remember the girls' names. And the last one, it is a nightmare for Chinen.
"Anou..." the girl seemed shy, "Nakajima-kun," he called the attention of the tallest member, as if her question depends on it - and it is. "Is it fine for you to me to hug Yamada-kun?"
"Are?" Yamada raised his brow, he couldn't comprehend why that girl asked for Yuto's permission. He IS NOT his boyfriend anyway.
"Nakajima-kun is Yamada-kun's husband, deshou?" the stupid girl utter, fanning herself as if she would faint sooner.
"Ehhh? When did we become one?"
The crowd became more noisy as everyone seemed like to repeat the girl's question (except for YamaChii fans obviously), so the tallest member has no choice but to give her his answer, "I'm sorry to say this, but I won't allow anyone to hug my husband."
With that, fans got more noisy and hyper (except again for YamaChii fans, and Chinen, himself). The stupid girl pouted knowing that she couldn't hug Yamada, who is just infront of her. "I'm sorry but my husband gets jealous easily." he said and then looked on the centre stage. "Any other request?"
The girl nodded, "Could you then hug Nakajima-kun?"
Since it's their job to make their fans happy (and crazy), Yuto quickly ran up to Yamada's place and hug the brown haired boy as what the fan requested.
Whilst the whole crowd were having a great blood lost on the YamaJima hug (except again for some shippers out there), pretty Inoo noticed his cute daughter's hands turned into a fist.
"Ba...kayarou." his brown orbs were on fire.
crying...
"Have you seen my baby Yuri?" The pig asked Yabu. He haven't seen the squirrel after their concert ended. He wasn't in the dressing room, nor on the Junior's room. "Why are you asking me pig, is there a Lost and Found sign in my face?" the leader responded sarcastically. He knew this would happen, after that thingy. Yabu knows them very well, especially about the smallest lovebirds in their group. And of course, Yamada knows his Chinen much more. "You know that you have lots of explaining to do again, don't you?"
Yamada nodded disappointedly, "Yes."
"I saw him left together with Inoo-chan. I think they've already gone home."
"Thanks."
He dashed to their shared room when he reached the JUMP's mansion. It doesn't seem normal to him when the house is not noisy. Well, everyone is still on the agency, except for him, and according to Yabu, the other two were already there.
"Yuri" he went to their room with the intention of talking with his lover. But nobody was there. Chinen Yuri was not there.
He knocked on the next room which is Inoo's room. The pretty guy opened the door for him with his raised eyebrows.
"Is Yuri there?"
His boyfriend's 'mother' crossed his arms as he glared on the not-so-chubby-cheeked-boy.
"Please, I need to talk to him."
Chinen couldn't control his tears when he heard Yamada's voice. He already stopped on crying but hearing that voice again, the pain is coming back. Yamada heard his hiccups and sobs and it makes him more worried.
Inoo sighed. "Thank you for making my baby cry." he reproached as the pretty Inoo Kei looked very scary at that time. "Fix this problem or else, I would punish you like hell." Inoo gave way to Yamada and let them be alone.
"Yuri... let me explain."
Surely because we know each other’s weakness,
we can hold our hand, right? Whatever happens,
you taught me that the thing we won't let go is the real strength
The little squirrel looks so fragile; hugging his knees, down casted. He would hiccup every second like he has been crying for very long time already. It pinched Yamada's heart to see Chinen that way, crying, because of him - again. He softly sat beside the crying boy. Gently and slowly, he wrapped his arms around the small frame.
"haah-naa-se", the chibi pushed those arms around him, his voice was so crack. "do-don't hug me."
At a situation like this, Yamada would be so stubborn. Yes, he loves to spoil his little lover, but not with that kind of order. Why should he not hug Chinen? He is his boyfriend. Chinen Yuri is his. He owns him. He loves him - very much. And never did he want to hurt his little princess - never. Curse that fangirl for requesting something stupid, blame Yuto for calling him his husband, curse his self for hugging Yuto. He didn't listen to Chinen when he said he should not hug him, instead he hug him tighter. Tight, that he would feel he's not alone. That Yamada would stay forever on his side.
"I said don't hug me! " he struggled. Trying to unlock those arms around him, hurting Yamada in any way possible. Punching him, kicking him, slapping him. But Yamada is taking them all; he knows that they're still nothing compare to the pain he's been giving to Chinen. Those heart aches are much painful. "Your husband gets jealous easily darou?!" he said putting an emphasis on the first two words."Hanase yo!!"
Yamada clicked his tongue, "So that's what really makes you mad." He held Chinen's arm to stop the little boy on struggling. "Listen Yuri, when I said that, I'm not pertaining to Yuto-kun okay. It's you Yuri, it's you." Chinen kept silent for a while. "Just look at you, you're drowning in jealousy. You get so jealous easily. That's why I said that. Because when I looked at you on the centre stage, even if you're on afar, I could still see your pout. I really don't want to do what the girl said, but, it's our job right? I'm sorry, my real husband." he loosen his hold on those small arms and held both of the squirrel's hands instead. "Don't worry; I’ll make it clear tomorrow. That you're my one and only husband." he smiled as he wiped the tears on the younger's eyes, kissed his forehead and pressed his own forehead on it after, staring at his boyfriend who's sniffing. "Just hold on me, and everything will be alright."
"I love you Yuri", and with those words, he believes.
From the sunny day when we're at the peak of tension,
Until the rainy day when we feel blue
Not disturbed by anyone,
it became our own memorial day
Chinen ceased on his struggling, the magic word had been said, those three words have such impact on him, that even if sometimes his boyfriend doesn't show his real feelings when the cameras are filming he knows that when he says those words, it is sincere. He can feel it by merely looking on the latter's eyes. He can say if his lover is lying, but never did Yamada lie to him. He let the older one to wrap his arm around his frame, and feeling so weak after all of the crying, he softly leaned and rested his head on his lover's chest.
"koko ni itte mo ii?"
Time is flowing
We, who have spent many years without even get bored with it,
talk to each other
Yamada nodded as he smiled sweetly. He gently caressed his lover's smooth and silky hair and let the squirrel stay on his chest, letting him hear his heartbeat that once was beating irregularly when the chibi got angry and left him.
"Gomen ne, i'm always like this." Chinen apologized as the older one shook his head for disagreement. "Daijoubu. I understand. Honestly, i would be jealous too if someone would claim you as their husband. We both get jealous da ne?", he chuckled ruffling the younger's hair. "Now that we're okay, could my princess show me his brightest smile?"
Chinen looked up at him, "Un", he said and smiled like nothing has happened.
Became stronger,
Their little fight was finally over. They stayed like that for a moment, intertwining their small hands together as Chinen snuggled closer to his piggy prince. “Does it mean you’ll be now the girl?” the chibi asked softly on the latter’s chest. Yamada tilted his head on confusion, “Ehh?”
“You said that I am your husband, so it means …” he looked at him teasingly, “you’ll be my wife.” he smirked.
“Demo…”, Yamada wanted to explain it more clear but Chinen didn’t let him finish on his sentence. “Besides, Ryo-chan knows how to cook and more has a wife-material than me. So the wife role really suits you more than me.” Yuriet declared poking his “wife” on its bouncy cheeks.
Yamada sighed in defeat. “Mou wakatta… But if I’ll be the wife, then it’ll make you to be … “, he paused as he was contemplating whether to complete his sentence. “…on top.” he whispered completing his sentence as Chinen’s cheeks suddenly flared red. “Ryosuke! Hentai!”
After that, their room - no, Inoo’s room had been filled with their laughter.
getting hurt,
“Tadaima~”, Yabu greeted casually as the 6 of them had gone back home. Yamada, Chinen, and Inoo having their proper manners casually replied “Okaeri” to them. Now their group was now complete and soon they’d be heading to their own rooms to take a rest. Their concert was really tiring. Well, everyday is so tiring for them but concert days would be so exhausting.
Chinen was alone on his shared room with his lover as Yamada went downstairs for a moment to prepare him a glass of milk. He knows that Yamada wouldn’t take it so long downstairs, but after what happened to them earlier, he thought of following him to the kitchen and would give him a sudden hug. He just wants Yamada to feel that everything is fine now, since the latter has been so guilty for the things that he has done - every little thing that he did that hurt the little boy.
He moved stealthily going to the kitchen to make sure that his lover won’t notice him. But then, upon reaching the said room, he saw that his lover is not alone on the kitchen. He was with the guy, who always is the reason of his heartaches. He knows he should not be angry again. Since they’re living together in a house, it’s just normal to see his boyfriend with the other members, but it is just… he is still hurt on what happened. And even he knows that what they did was just a fanservice, he couldn’t erase the fact that he is jealous. That even Yuto has Keito already and he has his Yamada Ryosuke. He still doesn’t want to share his boyfriend - especially to him
He just cut off his plan as he went back to their room. He couldn’t promise not to start a fight again if he’d stay longer on that place. Maybe it was just a coincidence that Yuto was there too, maybe he was thirsty or maybe Keito wants some milk too. But whatever possible reasons he thought off, he couldn’t pull out the pain on his chest. The scene on their concert kept on repeating on his mind like it was on repeat, and he couldn’t help it.
became lively again
Chinen stirred as he heard the doorknob of their room being twisted. He’s not sure whether he could act like he didn’t see anything. Not sure if he could act normally. Not sure if he could hide the pain on his face. Yamada entered soon with the glass of milk on his hand. “Yuri, here’s your milk.”
He sat down on their bed and gave the drink to Chinen. Chinen took it carefully and drank it and as he finished on his evening drink, he noticed that Yamada was looking at him with a concerned look so when he gave the glass back to his lover, he smiled at him. But failed though on showing a bright smile and ended up making a fake one.
“Yuri, doushita?”, even his lover is sometimes stupid, he could read if there’s something that bothers his squirrel. “You look sad. I thought we’re okay now.” he placed the glass on their side table as he cupped the squirrel’s cheeks and looked straight to his gleaming eyes. “What’s wrong?” Was the milk not good?”
Chinen shook his head, contemplating if he should say the reason. He didn’t want to talk about it again. He was tired of it. He just wants to lie down beside his prince and sleep with him. He wanted to end that day so soon and start another one, a happy one, together with his Ryomeo when the sun shines again. “I think I’m just tired. Let’s sleep now.”
No matter how many sorrow night will happen after this,
We’ll overcome it right
And I believe it will equal the same number as joyful morning we will face
Yamada smiled as he kissed the squirrel on its head. “You can’t hide it from me Yuri. But I won’t force you to speak up. Tell me when you’re ready okay?” he again pecked his lover on his lips. “If I have hurt you again, I’m sorry. I didn’t intend to hurt you. Never. It is just. I … “
Chinen pulled him closer and locked his lips with his lips.
That’s enough.
Time is flowing
Spent many years together means no one can compete against us
There's always a thing that doesn't change,
"Just believe". That words are meaningful
The older one respond on the younger’s kiss as their tongues soon danced with the rhythm of their love. They just stopped when they both need air. Yamada hugged him tighter, wrapping his arms around Chinen’s tiny frame as Chinen hugged him on his neck almost burying his tired head on Yamada’s chest, listening to his lover’s heartbeat like he was listening to his favorite Arashi’s song.
“Promise me you’ll never give up on us.” Yamada whispered on the younger one’s head as he slowly stroked Chinen’s hair with his fingers. Chinen breathe heavily as he replied, “ I promise… I will never give up on us Ryosuke, I promise.”
“Just believe on me Yuri. I will never leave you for anything, or for anyone. You’re the only one for me. Believe on our love, just believe on us.”
Surely because we know each other's weakness, we can hold our hand, right?
Whatever will happen, I'll never let you go.
Now I can put this feeling into words strongly
“Un.” The squirrel nodded as he looked up to stare at his lover’s eyes telling him that he believes on him. He gave him another sweet yet passionate kiss before pulling him to a peaceful sleep. “ I love you Ryosuke.”
“I love you too Yuri, very much.” they both confessed before closing their eyes, holding each others’ small hands as they promised to stay beside each other until they grow old. That even in the dream they’d share, they’ll be together - forever, And nothing could break them apart. That as long they’re holding on each other’s hands, nothing will change - them, Yamada Ryosuke and Chinen Yuri will always be one. That in every touch of their hand, it’s like saying,
“I’m just here, and I will never let you go. Aishiteru…Yuri.”
Now I can put this feeling into words strongly
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So how was it minna? I haven't written anything for this long and I don't really know if this one is worth posting. XD
Tsunagu Te to Te is my favorite song in their album hahah obviously, though I love vampires, and I should be choosing Boku wa Vampire over this, but the song is just toooo sweet isn't it?
Or I could choose Hanatare ... err Hana Egao because my ichiban Yamada wrote it or the most difficult song in their album.... utautau xDDD
Hope you still remember me guys. lol
But before anything else, I want to say something
or is it yamachii has to say something?
No they'll not say that they will be getting married
cuz they are married already right
and they have Yukito as their first son already
and probably they have another one on the process
but honestly speaking...
hai hai you've read it right. I'll be on semi-hiatus again. As you may noticed I haven't been updating lately.
Ber month has started deshou? and that means JLPT. So yeah, I need to review and study nihongo again, I need to improveeeeee. But I still have my phone so I can still stay connected with you guys. Just nudge my journal if you're missing me that much xDD
Please remember my name n-o-d-o-k-a or j-a-s-s
And please don't forget to comment. :))
Author:nodoka06
Pairing: Yamada x Chinen
Summary: Love is never about finding the hand that perfectly fits yours. It's about finding that one person who is willing to hold hands no matter how unfit it may be.
Words: 3,856
A/N: Songfic obviously inspired from Tsunagu Te To Te.
The gentle stroke of a hand on his hair had awoken him. It was rather soothing, as the gentleness that surrounded his head make him feel safe. He usually doesn't like when someone dares to disturb him on his peaceful slumber, but if it is Him, if it is his hand, his soft hands, he would not mind. As long as that guy would always be on his side. That when he wakes up, he would be the first one - the only one - his eyes would settled upon.
The feeling when we hold our hand, the rhythm of the foot when we walk, too
Is like something no one can imitate, it became our very own style
"Ryo-chan", a soft call escaped from his lips, his eyes were slightly open. Just an enough opening to check if his prince was really there. He snuggled closer.
"Still sleepy, my princess?" he asked, as he kept on stroking the younger's hair. He cuddled him being like a big teddy bear of Yuri, kissing his forehead.
He shook his head slowly, "Let's just stay like this for a while, Romeo."
A chuckle. Seeing his boyfriend being so cute so early in the morning could have brighten his day already. He would not wish for anything, but him. Nothing but his Chinen Yuri.
"Alright, alright. We will stay like this. Anything my Juliet wishes, I-"
Chinen did a slight pinch on Yamada's arm, "Yuri da~, don't call me Juliet" a pout. "Only me can call you Romeo but I don't want to be called as Juliet. It makes me feel jealous of whoever Juliet is."
Yamada smiled. The way Chinen thinks is really different; his point of view is really different. Because there is only one Chinen Yuri, that's why he is. "Yuriet", he gave him a soft peck on his pouting lips, a sudden one. "If I'm your Romeo, then you're my Yuriet"
"That sounds stupid." He rolled his eyes on Yamada, but then he laughed. He remembered that it was actually his doing. That when they first performed their song Romeo and Juliet, he really was insanely jealous over that Juliet. He wants to be Yamada's little Juliet, but he doesn't want to be called with a name that isn't his, so he came up on combining his name with Juliet. "as stupid as Ryomeo."
"Ryomeo is really stupid, ne." he smiled weakly. It hit him. Chinen doesn't mean it that way. It was just one of the things his sharp tongue could say, but it's not on the other way around. "I'm stupid."
"Ryosuke, that's not what I meant." an apologetic look from Chinen; holding his cheek, warming it up with his small hand. "That's not it.", assurance.
But, the guilt was running all over him. Yamada was occupied by his guilt, conscience. "I know. But I ... am really stupid. I..."
A finger was placed on his lips softly, "Ssssh. Everyone makes a mistake." Chinen smiled sweetly, trying to give back the brightness on his lover's face. He let go of his cheeks for a moment but exchange it with a lovely kiss on those chubby cheeks. He placed his hand on the older's hand instead.
" I love you Ryosuke. How stupid you might be."
Occasionally you act like an adult more than me
Who and what to said,
became the things only we decided
Chinen wrapped his arm around Yamada whilst the latter did the same, wrapping his arm around the squirrel's waist. Their small frames perfectly fit each other, with Chinen's head resting upon his. Reassuring the buta that he didn't intend it, that calling him stupid doesn't have a deeper meaning - the hurtful truth.
"Yuri...", he muttered softly as he felt Chinen's embrace. Chinen is making him feel safe, though it should be the other way around. It should be him. Him, who is supposed to let him feel safe, not just to feel but to do really save him. Save him from this cruel world where people is trying to destroy the genuine love they share, trying to seperate them apart. "I... I... I'm sorry..." he plunged his head over the small chest, drenching it as he let his tears to flow down.
Chinen hugged him tighter as he know it could lessen the dolour his boyfriend is having, stroking his hair like his fingers were made for them and as rested his head over his, smelling the strawberry scent that's wafting on the older's hair. "You're such a crybaby, Ryosuke." he teased, letting a small laughter.
"I really am, Yuri..." he tried to form a smile as he doesnt want to look so fragile in front of his princess. "Gomen ne." he wiped his tears, pulling out a bit to touched the younger's cheek. "I should be the one protecting you." he said before pressing his lips on Chinen's.
Sweet. Pure. Sincere.
Time is flowing
We, who have spent many years without even get bored with it,
continues repeating our daily life
It has been four years - no, scratch that, almost five years when they discovered that they're both inlove with each other. Both have had their ups and downs, both have their own insecurities, selfishness...
Both do get jealous.
They could sometimes have their little fights. But lovers really do make fights, right? But those little fights never succeed on tearing them apart, thus, it makes them stronger. That when Chinen already has enough and had thought of giving up, Yamada didn't let him. Yes, he was dense not to see the pain on his boyfriend's eyes. Too stupid not to realize every doings he does to the other members could put a crack on the younger's delicate heart. That whenever he denies his boyfriend during interviews and whenever he ignores him during photoshoots and jacket shooting is like stabbing Chinen's little heart non-stop, leaving a scar on it.
Stupid boyfriend.
Stupid pig.
Chinen would curse him when those moments occur, still at the end, he'd never win over his feelings. His love - Yamada Ryosuke. I love you Yuri. Those words could make him feel better, maybe it couldn't heal the wounds on his heart completely, but it could miss the pain. Somehow.
Laughing
Chinen pulled out from the kiss first as his phone under his pillow vibrates. Yamada groaned on a sudden distraction with his brows all pitched up. The squirrel took his phone and read his message. Yabu-kun really knows how to ruin the moment.
"Just reminding us not to be late on our concert." he reported. "They know the consequence of pairing us on a room. Now get up and cook something." he ordered slightly pushing Yamada on the bed. He pulled the blanket up to his small chest and gave his lover a motivating smile, "Yuri wants omurice!"
"Fine fine." Yamada laughed cutely and kissed his little lover on his forehead. "You sounded like a pregnant woman."
getting angry,
Time for their concert. The whole arena, as usual is very crowded. And it's time to interact with the audiences. They're split into two groups. Yuto, Inoo, Daiki, Yabu and Chinen would be staying on the stage entertaining those in VIP seats while the remaining member, Hikaru, Keito, Yuya and Yamada would
run upstairs either to the 2nd or 3rd floor of the dome and would let the audience to ask question. The first lucky girl asked Hikaru what his best joke is, the second asked Keito if he could teach her English, the third one asked Yuya if he still remember the names of all the casts of Bakaleya, everyone howled in laugher when he couldn't remember the girls' names. And the last one, it is a nightmare for Chinen.
"Anou..." the girl seemed shy, "Nakajima-kun," he called the attention of the tallest member, as if her question depends on it - and it is. "Is it fine for you to me to hug Yamada-kun?"
"Are?" Yamada raised his brow, he couldn't comprehend why that girl asked for Yuto's permission. He IS NOT his boyfriend anyway.
"Nakajima-kun is Yamada-kun's husband, deshou?" the stupid girl utter, fanning herself as if she would faint sooner.
"Ehhh? When did we become one?"
The crowd became more noisy as everyone seemed like to repeat the girl's question (except for YamaChii fans obviously), so the tallest member has no choice but to give her his answer, "I'm sorry to say this, but I won't allow anyone to hug my husband."
With that, fans got more noisy and hyper (except again for YamaChii fans, and Chinen, himself). The stupid girl pouted knowing that she couldn't hug Yamada, who is just infront of her. "I'm sorry but my husband gets jealous easily." he said and then looked on the centre stage. "Any other request?"
The girl nodded, "Could you then hug Nakajima-kun?"
Since it's their job to make their fans happy (and crazy), Yuto quickly ran up to Yamada's place and hug the brown haired boy as what the fan requested.
Whilst the whole crowd were having a great blood lost on the YamaJima hug (except again for some shippers out there), pretty Inoo noticed his cute daughter's hands turned into a fist.
"Ba...kayarou." his brown orbs were on fire.
crying...
"Have you seen my baby Yuri?" The pig asked Yabu. He haven't seen the squirrel after their concert ended. He wasn't in the dressing room, nor on the Junior's room. "Why are you asking me pig, is there a Lost and Found sign in my face?" the leader responded sarcastically. He knew this would happen, after that thingy. Yabu knows them very well, especially about the smallest lovebirds in their group. And of course, Yamada knows his Chinen much more. "You know that you have lots of explaining to do again, don't you?"
Yamada nodded disappointedly, "Yes."
"I saw him left together with Inoo-chan. I think they've already gone home."
"Thanks."
He dashed to their shared room when he reached the JUMP's mansion. It doesn't seem normal to him when the house is not noisy. Well, everyone is still on the agency, except for him, and according to Yabu, the other two were already there.
"Yuri" he went to their room with the intention of talking with his lover. But nobody was there. Chinen Yuri was not there.
He knocked on the next room which is Inoo's room. The pretty guy opened the door for him with his raised eyebrows.
"Is Yuri there?"
His boyfriend's 'mother' crossed his arms as he glared on the not-so-chubby-cheeked-boy.
"Please, I need to talk to him."
Chinen couldn't control his tears when he heard Yamada's voice. He already stopped on crying but hearing that voice again, the pain is coming back. Yamada heard his hiccups and sobs and it makes him more worried.
Inoo sighed. "Thank you for making my baby cry." he reproached as the pretty Inoo Kei looked very scary at that time. "Fix this problem or else, I would punish you like hell." Inoo gave way to Yamada and let them be alone.
"Yuri... let me explain."
Surely because we know each other’s weakness,
we can hold our hand, right? Whatever happens,
you taught me that the thing we won't let go is the real strength
The little squirrel looks so fragile; hugging his knees, down casted. He would hiccup every second like he has been crying for very long time already. It pinched Yamada's heart to see Chinen that way, crying, because of him - again. He softly sat beside the crying boy. Gently and slowly, he wrapped his arms around the small frame.
"haah-naa-se", the chibi pushed those arms around him, his voice was so crack. "do-don't hug me."
At a situation like this, Yamada would be so stubborn. Yes, he loves to spoil his little lover, but not with that kind of order. Why should he not hug Chinen? He is his boyfriend. Chinen Yuri is his. He owns him. He loves him - very much. And never did he want to hurt his little princess - never. Curse that fangirl for requesting something stupid, blame Yuto for calling him his husband, curse his self for hugging Yuto. He didn't listen to Chinen when he said he should not hug him, instead he hug him tighter. Tight, that he would feel he's not alone. That Yamada would stay forever on his side.
"I said don't hug me! " he struggled. Trying to unlock those arms around him, hurting Yamada in any way possible. Punching him, kicking him, slapping him. But Yamada is taking them all; he knows that they're still nothing compare to the pain he's been giving to Chinen. Those heart aches are much painful. "Your husband gets jealous easily darou?!" he said putting an emphasis on the first two words."Hanase yo!!"
Yamada clicked his tongue, "So that's what really makes you mad." He held Chinen's arm to stop the little boy on struggling. "Listen Yuri, when I said that, I'm not pertaining to Yuto-kun okay. It's you Yuri, it's you." Chinen kept silent for a while. "Just look at you, you're drowning in jealousy. You get so jealous easily. That's why I said that. Because when I looked at you on the centre stage, even if you're on afar, I could still see your pout. I really don't want to do what the girl said, but, it's our job right? I'm sorry, my real husband." he loosen his hold on those small arms and held both of the squirrel's hands instead. "Don't worry; I’ll make it clear tomorrow. That you're my one and only husband." he smiled as he wiped the tears on the younger's eyes, kissed his forehead and pressed his own forehead on it after, staring at his boyfriend who's sniffing. "Just hold on me, and everything will be alright."
"I love you Yuri", and with those words, he believes.
From the sunny day when we're at the peak of tension,
Until the rainy day when we feel blue
Not disturbed by anyone,
it became our own memorial day
Chinen ceased on his struggling, the magic word had been said, those three words have such impact on him, that even if sometimes his boyfriend doesn't show his real feelings when the cameras are filming he knows that when he says those words, it is sincere. He can feel it by merely looking on the latter's eyes. He can say if his lover is lying, but never did Yamada lie to him. He let the older one to wrap his arm around his frame, and feeling so weak after all of the crying, he softly leaned and rested his head on his lover's chest.
"koko ni itte mo ii?"
Time is flowing
We, who have spent many years without even get bored with it,
talk to each other
Yamada nodded as he smiled sweetly. He gently caressed his lover's smooth and silky hair and let the squirrel stay on his chest, letting him hear his heartbeat that once was beating irregularly when the chibi got angry and left him.
"Gomen ne, i'm always like this." Chinen apologized as the older one shook his head for disagreement. "Daijoubu. I understand. Honestly, i would be jealous too if someone would claim you as their husband. We both get jealous da ne?", he chuckled ruffling the younger's hair. "Now that we're okay, could my princess show me his brightest smile?"
Chinen looked up at him, "Un", he said and smiled like nothing has happened.
Became stronger,
Their little fight was finally over. They stayed like that for a moment, intertwining their small hands together as Chinen snuggled closer to his piggy prince. “Does it mean you’ll be now the girl?” the chibi asked softly on the latter’s chest. Yamada tilted his head on confusion, “Ehh?”
“You said that I am your husband, so it means …” he looked at him teasingly, “you’ll be my wife.” he smirked.
“Demo…”, Yamada wanted to explain it more clear but Chinen didn’t let him finish on his sentence. “Besides, Ryo-chan knows how to cook and more has a wife-material than me. So the wife role really suits you more than me.” Yuriet declared poking his “wife” on its bouncy cheeks.
Yamada sighed in defeat. “Mou wakatta… But if I’ll be the wife, then it’ll make you to be … “, he paused as he was contemplating whether to complete his sentence. “…on top.” he whispered completing his sentence as Chinen’s cheeks suddenly flared red. “Ryosuke! Hentai!”
After that, their room - no, Inoo’s room had been filled with their laughter.
getting hurt,
“Tadaima~”, Yabu greeted casually as the 6 of them had gone back home. Yamada, Chinen, and Inoo having their proper manners casually replied “Okaeri” to them. Now their group was now complete and soon they’d be heading to their own rooms to take a rest. Their concert was really tiring. Well, everyday is so tiring for them but concert days would be so exhausting.
Chinen was alone on his shared room with his lover as Yamada went downstairs for a moment to prepare him a glass of milk. He knows that Yamada wouldn’t take it so long downstairs, but after what happened to them earlier, he thought of following him to the kitchen and would give him a sudden hug. He just wants Yamada to feel that everything is fine now, since the latter has been so guilty for the things that he has done - every little thing that he did that hurt the little boy.
He moved stealthily going to the kitchen to make sure that his lover won’t notice him. But then, upon reaching the said room, he saw that his lover is not alone on the kitchen. He was with the guy, who always is the reason of his heartaches. He knows he should not be angry again. Since they’re living together in a house, it’s just normal to see his boyfriend with the other members, but it is just… he is still hurt on what happened. And even he knows that what they did was just a fanservice, he couldn’t erase the fact that he is jealous. That even Yuto has Keito already and he has his Yamada Ryosuke. He still doesn’t want to share his boyfriend - especially to him
He just cut off his plan as he went back to their room. He couldn’t promise not to start a fight again if he’d stay longer on that place. Maybe it was just a coincidence that Yuto was there too, maybe he was thirsty or maybe Keito wants some milk too. But whatever possible reasons he thought off, he couldn’t pull out the pain on his chest. The scene on their concert kept on repeating on his mind like it was on repeat, and he couldn’t help it.
became lively again
Chinen stirred as he heard the doorknob of their room being twisted. He’s not sure whether he could act like he didn’t see anything. Not sure if he could act normally. Not sure if he could hide the pain on his face. Yamada entered soon with the glass of milk on his hand. “Yuri, here’s your milk.”
He sat down on their bed and gave the drink to Chinen. Chinen took it carefully and drank it and as he finished on his evening drink, he noticed that Yamada was looking at him with a concerned look so when he gave the glass back to his lover, he smiled at him. But failed though on showing a bright smile and ended up making a fake one.
“Yuri, doushita?”, even his lover is sometimes stupid, he could read if there’s something that bothers his squirrel. “You look sad. I thought we’re okay now.” he placed the glass on their side table as he cupped the squirrel’s cheeks and looked straight to his gleaming eyes. “What’s wrong?” Was the milk not good?”
Chinen shook his head, contemplating if he should say the reason. He didn’t want to talk about it again. He was tired of it. He just wants to lie down beside his prince and sleep with him. He wanted to end that day so soon and start another one, a happy one, together with his Ryomeo when the sun shines again. “I think I’m just tired. Let’s sleep now.”
No matter how many sorrow night will happen after this,
We’ll overcome it right
And I believe it will equal the same number as joyful morning we will face
Yamada smiled as he kissed the squirrel on its head. “You can’t hide it from me Yuri. But I won’t force you to speak up. Tell me when you’re ready okay?” he again pecked his lover on his lips. “If I have hurt you again, I’m sorry. I didn’t intend to hurt you. Never. It is just. I … “
Chinen pulled him closer and locked his lips with his lips.
That’s enough.
Time is flowing
Spent many years together means no one can compete against us
There's always a thing that doesn't change,
"Just believe". That words are meaningful
The older one respond on the younger’s kiss as their tongues soon danced with the rhythm of their love. They just stopped when they both need air. Yamada hugged him tighter, wrapping his arms around Chinen’s tiny frame as Chinen hugged him on his neck almost burying his tired head on Yamada’s chest, listening to his lover’s heartbeat like he was listening to his favorite Arashi’s song.
“Promise me you’ll never give up on us.” Yamada whispered on the younger one’s head as he slowly stroked Chinen’s hair with his fingers. Chinen breathe heavily as he replied, “ I promise… I will never give up on us Ryosuke, I promise.”
“Just believe on me Yuri. I will never leave you for anything, or for anyone. You’re the only one for me. Believe on our love, just believe on us.”
Surely because we know each other's weakness, we can hold our hand, right?
Whatever will happen, I'll never let you go.
Now I can put this feeling into words strongly
“Un.” The squirrel nodded as he looked up to stare at his lover’s eyes telling him that he believes on him. He gave him another sweet yet passionate kiss before pulling him to a peaceful sleep. “ I love you Ryosuke.”
“I love you too Yuri, very much.” they both confessed before closing their eyes, holding each others’ small hands as they promised to stay beside each other until they grow old. That even in the dream they’d share, they’ll be together - forever, And nothing could break them apart. That as long they’re holding on each other’s hands, nothing will change - them, Yamada Ryosuke and Chinen Yuri will always be one. That in every touch of their hand, it’s like saying,
“I’m just here, and I will never let you go. Aishiteru…Yuri.”
Now I can put this feeling into words strongly
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So how was it minna? I haven't written anything for this long and I don't really know if this one is worth posting. XD
Tsunagu Te to Te is my favorite song in their album hahah obviously, though I love vampires, and I should be choosing Boku wa Vampire over this, but the song is just toooo sweet isn't it?
Or I could choose Hanatare ... err Hana Egao because my ichiban Yamada wrote it or the most difficult song in their album.... utautau xDDD
Hope you still remember me guys. lol
But before anything else, I want to say something
or is it yamachii has to say something?
No they'll not say that they will be getting married
cuz they are married already right
and they have Yukito as their first son already
and probably they have another one on the process
but honestly speaking...
hai hai you've read it right. I'll be on semi-hiatus again. As you may noticed I haven't been updating lately.
Ber month has started deshou? and that means JLPT. So yeah, I need to review and study nihongo again, I need to improveeeeee. But I still have my phone so I can still stay connected with you guys. Just nudge my journal if you're missing me that much xDD
Please remember my name n-o-d-o-k-a or j-a-s-s
And please don't forget to comment. :))