i suck at this
here i go with the vagueness.
So lately i've been trying to make myself a plan for the advent of working again. Since the seizures I haven't had any motivation to do anything, at first it was because i was feeling so awful i couldn't even if i wanted to. However, after months and months of trying to get meds at the right levels my neurologist decided my persisting symptoms were now largely to do with psychological affects from the drastic change my life had made, and i was diagnosed with "situational depression" or whatever they called it.
This leads me to try and take some advice to take small steps out of my funk, and frankly I just don't feel like getting into that, suffice it to say I just need OUT of it. So the first and easiest step is to make a plan for possible education etc. and ways to get a new career going. Next is trying to get back into guitar, (i dont own any other instruments).
Despite realizing why and how about changing my circumstances or at least my outlook, i still can't kick my ass into gear. It's debilitating and frustrating and depressing and it pushes people away when they realize the kind of state i'm in. I also have no money, you might not understand how much of an impact that has on a persons life but it does have a direct stranglehold on it.
I know all that is incomplete and full of holes, but i'm not all that good at posting/blogging. I'm now going to kill a bottle of wine.
So lately i've been trying to make myself a plan for the advent of working again. Since the seizures I haven't had any motivation to do anything, at first it was because i was feeling so awful i couldn't even if i wanted to. However, after months and months of trying to get meds at the right levels my neurologist decided my persisting symptoms were now largely to do with psychological affects from the drastic change my life had made, and i was diagnosed with "situational depression" or whatever they called it.
This leads me to try and take some advice to take small steps out of my funk, and frankly I just don't feel like getting into that, suffice it to say I just need OUT of it. So the first and easiest step is to make a plan for possible education etc. and ways to get a new career going. Next is trying to get back into guitar, (i dont own any other instruments).
Despite realizing why and how about changing my circumstances or at least my outlook, i still can't kick my ass into gear. It's debilitating and frustrating and depressing and it pushes people away when they realize the kind of state i'm in. I also have no money, you might not understand how much of an impact that has on a persons life but it does have a direct stranglehold on it.
I know all that is incomplete and full of holes, but i'm not all that good at posting/blogging. I'm now going to kill a bottle of wine.