i'm gonna be the love that's gonna last
I'm back in Maryland. In most cases, I'd say "I'm home," but I think LC has won that title. There's so much here that I don't like and so much back at LC that I love.
My worst nightmare is coming true as I'm here in Maryland. I'm facing the fact that it's really difficult to keep in touch with people from school. I hate that I text people and they don't answer. I feel like everyone's going back to life back home and I'm the only one who wants to be back in school. Bottom line, I'm not happy in Maryland, not like I was in Virginia.
The situation at home is weird. I still haven't told my parents anything. I'm waiting until after my birthday/Mother's Day. I figure I'll have my new GPS then and then if my parents completely freak out, I can take my car and drive. I know that my plan's a little extreme, but this is scary.
I also really don't like that whenever I talk to Sara about talking to her mother about everything, just to explain it from my point of view--not to yell at her mother or try to change her mind--she tells me not to corner her mother. I feel like she doesn't want me to say anything to her mother. I want to believe that Sara's telling the truth, that her mother does know and that's the reason why so many things are changing, but at the same time, it's just really sketchy. What if this does jeopardize our friendship? I can deal with it if it is honestly Sara's choice not to have any more sleepovers with me. I admit that I'll be a a little disappointed, but I have expected it for a while. In my mind, nothing has changed because I've known who I am for a long time, but I know that people will view me differently whether I like it or not.
Anyway, Mrs. M or Sara: if you're reading this, could you tell me the truth? Could you tell me what's going on?
Always, Emily
My worst nightmare is coming true as I'm here in Maryland. I'm facing the fact that it's really difficult to keep in touch with people from school. I hate that I text people and they don't answer. I feel like everyone's going back to life back home and I'm the only one who wants to be back in school. Bottom line, I'm not happy in Maryland, not like I was in Virginia.
The situation at home is weird. I still haven't told my parents anything. I'm waiting until after my birthday/Mother's Day. I figure I'll have my new GPS then and then if my parents completely freak out, I can take my car and drive. I know that my plan's a little extreme, but this is scary.
I also really don't like that whenever I talk to Sara about talking to her mother about everything, just to explain it from my point of view--not to yell at her mother or try to change her mind--she tells me not to corner her mother. I feel like she doesn't want me to say anything to her mother. I want to believe that Sara's telling the truth, that her mother does know and that's the reason why so many things are changing, but at the same time, it's just really sketchy. What if this does jeopardize our friendship? I can deal with it if it is honestly Sara's choice not to have any more sleepovers with me. I admit that I'll be a a little disappointed, but I have expected it for a while. In my mind, nothing has changed because I've known who I am for a long time, but I know that people will view me differently whether I like it or not.
Anyway, Mrs. M or Sara: if you're reading this, could you tell me the truth? Could you tell me what's going on?
Always, Emily