GRRRRRRR
just haven't been having a very good last couple of days. it's really starting to piss me off. i know one of the reasons as to why i've been upset, but i don't wanna talk about it. another major reason is the mass recommunication of a lot of old friends. kinda freaking me out. Heather called me last night..... never thought i'd hear from her again. definately freaking me out. especially b/c all these old friends of mine have been calling me sometime within the last couple of weeks. i've been so busy with school that i don't have time to fucking think. i'm stressed out beyond belief about everything that's going on. and i haven't had a good nights sleep for like 4 days now....... sitting here in my boyfriends basement, by myself, lonely, thinking about everything, stressed out, tired as hell, and listening to this song on repeat. i think i've listened to it over 20 times now. it's a great depressed song though, makes you wanna cut the shit outta yourself. good thing i don't have any sharp objects here though, lol, or else i might scare the kids. j/k...... here. here's the words to my favorite song, lol. inspirational......
"Wish i was, to dead to cry, as self infliction fades...
Stones to throw at my creator, masicist to which i cator...
You don't need to bother,
I don't need to be.
I'll keep slippin farther...
And once i hold on,
I won't let go till it bleeds...
Wish i was, to dead to care, if indeed i cared at all...
Never had a voice to protest, so you fed me SHIT to digest...
I wish i had a reason, my flaws are open season,
For this i gave up trying...
One good turn deserves my dying...
You don't need to bother,
I don't need to be.
I'll keep slippin farther...
And once i hold on,
I won't let go till it bleeds...........
Wish i died instead of lived, a zombie as my face...
Shall forgotten with it's memories,
Diaries left, with cryptic entries...
And you don't need to bother,
I don't need to be.(i don't need to be)
I'll keep slippin farther...
And once i hold on,
I won't let go till it bleeds.
YOU DON'T NEED TO BOTHER,
I DON'T NEED TO BE.(I don't need to be)
I'LL KEEP SLIPPIN FARTHER...
and once i hold on(once i hold on.....)
I'LL NEVER LIVE DOWN MY DISEASE......................"
"Wish i was, to dead to cry, as self infliction fades...
Stones to throw at my creator, masicist to which i cator...
You don't need to bother,
I don't need to be.
I'll keep slippin farther...
And once i hold on,
I won't let go till it bleeds...
Wish i was, to dead to care, if indeed i cared at all...
Never had a voice to protest, so you fed me SHIT to digest...
I wish i had a reason, my flaws are open season,
For this i gave up trying...
One good turn deserves my dying...
You don't need to bother,
I don't need to be.
I'll keep slippin farther...
And once i hold on,
I won't let go till it bleeds...........
Wish i died instead of lived, a zombie as my face...
Shall forgotten with it's memories,
Diaries left, with cryptic entries...
And you don't need to bother,
I don't need to be.(i don't need to be)
I'll keep slippin farther...
And once i hold on,
I won't let go till it bleeds.
YOU DON'T NEED TO BOTHER,
I DON'T NEED TO BE.(I don't need to be)
I'LL KEEP SLIPPIN FARTHER...
and once i hold on(once i hold on.....)
I'LL NEVER LIVE DOWN MY DISEASE......................"