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so ya, things are still quite hectic in my life.... school has been almost too much to bear, with all the shit i STILL have to get straghtened out. it's almost been a month now and my schedule and such is still all fucked up and moving around all the time. mom took me to get some more books that i just found out i needed, like tuesday or so. i dropped my psychology class today, which is prolly bad idea. but the time slot that it was in made it very difficult for me to go to sometimes, particularlly mondays, and i feel that i have missed too many of the classes to salvage a good grade. so, i figured it's prolly better for my GPA to just drop it and retake it some other time, like next semester. so.... in result, my schedule is still all flip floppin around. lol.
talked to "J" a few days ago, like wednesday. he called outta the blue. i was hanging out with Darrel, my new friend here at Kent State, and we happened to be getting very high..... so, i didn't answer my phone b/c it came up a very weird number and i thought it might have been someone important. thought it might not be a good idea to answer the phone when i'm blazed outta my mind. lol. but then i checked my messages a little later and found out that it was "J"... apparently he decided that he's not going to let that dumb cunt control his life anymore. which i think is a good idea. at first i was happy for him that he started dating someone, but then when she went and told him he couldn't talk to me and shit. that was fucking rediculous. i understand that someone can get jelous, but c'mon girly girl your a fucking RETARD!! think about the things you say!?!?! anyways, so ya. me and "J" are talking again, for now. i'm not going to totally forgive him all the way just yet, b/c he hurt my feelings more then anyone can imagine and i spent a lot of time crying over him. but i love him to the max, and i don't think i could stand not being his friend. so i am incredibly glad that he has decided to talk to me still.
i'm elligble to get my liscense back now. YAY!!! after about a year and a 1/2 of the most unrelenting suspension a teenage girl can endure, i can finally drive again. my suspension was over january 27, lol. i just recently came up with the $$ to get it back though. being as how i got arrested while i was suspended, my reinstatement fee is about 215$. and with perfect timing, i recieved a check for 200$ yesterday in the mail from UT... my stipend for being in marching band, lol. it's humorous really, they have to pay people 200$ to motivate them to be in marching band, lol, kinda sad. heh. but i don't care, it helps me out A LOT right about now. so ya, i'm going to go buy that car off my dad.... then get some insurance.... then get my liscense back..... then drive all over the place!!! HEHEHEHE!!!!! i am most definately planning a trip up to toledo to visit my old college buddies from last semester. i still keep in touch with all of them, mostly via AIM and such things on the wonderful internet(when it's working!!). i want to go on a lil mini rodad trip over to millersberg PA to visit "J" here sometime soon aswell, but i'm not quite sure when i can do that. it's all about the timing with school, and the money, and finding a place to stay. i'm not sure if i can stay with "J" or if i'll have to get a hotel, i haven't asked yet. b/c obviously if i can stay with "J" then it will be a lot cheaper..... also, i was thinking about going over to Iowa for a major road trip this spring to visit Dan. we talk on the phone about once a week basically. he's such a cool guy. i met him up here in cleveland at a metal show in the summer. lol. he was in town for the strongsville horror movie festival and happened to catch a local metal show that i was at down in the flats. so, ya i'm gunna drive all over the united states to make up for lost time. lol.
so i didn't get ANY sleep last night b/c i just couldn't fall asleep for some reason? so i'm really FUCKING tired, and i'm going to go home(parents house for the weekend like always) and take a nap. then greg and i are going to venture back out here, to stow, to visit the lovely Black Wolf pool hall (gothic pool hall, sweet ass hang out spot) and then i dunno what we'll be up to later. prolly crazy kinky bondage sex, lol. hehe b/c i've been bad.... j/k.......peace out
talked to "J" a few days ago, like wednesday. he called outta the blue. i was hanging out with Darrel, my new friend here at Kent State, and we happened to be getting very high..... so, i didn't answer my phone b/c it came up a very weird number and i thought it might have been someone important. thought it might not be a good idea to answer the phone when i'm blazed outta my mind. lol. but then i checked my messages a little later and found out that it was "J"... apparently he decided that he's not going to let that dumb cunt control his life anymore. which i think is a good idea. at first i was happy for him that he started dating someone, but then when she went and told him he couldn't talk to me and shit. that was fucking rediculous. i understand that someone can get jelous, but c'mon girly girl your a fucking RETARD!! think about the things you say!?!?! anyways, so ya. me and "J" are talking again, for now. i'm not going to totally forgive him all the way just yet, b/c he hurt my feelings more then anyone can imagine and i spent a lot of time crying over him. but i love him to the max, and i don't think i could stand not being his friend. so i am incredibly glad that he has decided to talk to me still.
i'm elligble to get my liscense back now. YAY!!! after about a year and a 1/2 of the most unrelenting suspension a teenage girl can endure, i can finally drive again. my suspension was over january 27, lol. i just recently came up with the $$ to get it back though. being as how i got arrested while i was suspended, my reinstatement fee is about 215$. and with perfect timing, i recieved a check for 200$ yesterday in the mail from UT... my stipend for being in marching band, lol. it's humorous really, they have to pay people 200$ to motivate them to be in marching band, lol, kinda sad. heh. but i don't care, it helps me out A LOT right about now. so ya, i'm going to go buy that car off my dad.... then get some insurance.... then get my liscense back..... then drive all over the place!!! HEHEHEHE!!!!! i am most definately planning a trip up to toledo to visit my old college buddies from last semester. i still keep in touch with all of them, mostly via AIM and such things on the wonderful internet(when it's working!!). i want to go on a lil mini rodad trip over to millersberg PA to visit "J" here sometime soon aswell, but i'm not quite sure when i can do that. it's all about the timing with school, and the money, and finding a place to stay. i'm not sure if i can stay with "J" or if i'll have to get a hotel, i haven't asked yet. b/c obviously if i can stay with "J" then it will be a lot cheaper..... also, i was thinking about going over to Iowa for a major road trip this spring to visit Dan. we talk on the phone about once a week basically. he's such a cool guy. i met him up here in cleveland at a metal show in the summer. lol. he was in town for the strongsville horror movie festival and happened to catch a local metal show that i was at down in the flats. so, ya i'm gunna drive all over the united states to make up for lost time. lol.
so i didn't get ANY sleep last night b/c i just couldn't fall asleep for some reason? so i'm really FUCKING tired, and i'm going to go home(parents house for the weekend like always) and take a nap. then greg and i are going to venture back out here, to stow, to visit the lovely Black Wolf pool hall (gothic pool hall, sweet ass hang out spot) and then i dunno what we'll be up to later. prolly crazy kinky bondage sex, lol. hehe b/c i've been bad.... j/k.......peace out