Your wrong/if you think I'll be just like you/on my own/Cuz I just cant take living with you
In the past two days I have probaly written over a hundred journal entrys, but none of them have really seemed right. Ive been conflicted on every journal entry I write. None of them really seemed to say anything truly meaningful outside of useless babble. Fuck, I'm so conflicted.
The second I annouce my love for Taylor, Dawn feels she needs to jump back into my life and tell me I'm not truly happy, That I'm just trying to find someway to occupy my mind to get it off the fact that I'm not happy. That I'm still the same guy I was then, that I'm so easily toyed with. This is bullshit, why is it everytime her and I stop talking, I find someone, she feels she needs to jump back into my life, either wanting me back, or not sayin she wants me back, but sayings she jeaolus everynow and than. Or just giving me such a hard time, trying to remind me of what I felt(notice I said FELT!) for her. Shes done this since we were 13 and 14. And its happened everytime. Its so unfair. I wanted her back, sure, and yes I did try to get her back, but she pushed me away. And for once, I had to give up because I couldnt take the insults, the belittlement, the hatred, the spite. I couldnt take it anymore, so I decided to move on, and I found Taylor. And now Dawn repeats the cycle. And its taken every bit of stregnth I have not to freak out, and ditch Taylor and buy into Dawns words... God, this is so fucking hard on me...Im going to go,
The second I annouce my love for Taylor, Dawn feels she needs to jump back into my life and tell me I'm not truly happy, That I'm just trying to find someway to occupy my mind to get it off the fact that I'm not happy. That I'm still the same guy I was then, that I'm so easily toyed with. This is bullshit, why is it everytime her and I stop talking, I find someone, she feels she needs to jump back into my life, either wanting me back, or not sayin she wants me back, but sayings she jeaolus everynow and than. Or just giving me such a hard time, trying to remind me of what I felt(notice I said FELT!) for her. Shes done this since we were 13 and 14. And its happened everytime. Its so unfair. I wanted her back, sure, and yes I did try to get her back, but she pushed me away. And for once, I had to give up because I couldnt take the insults, the belittlement, the hatred, the spite. I couldnt take it anymore, so I decided to move on, and I found Taylor. And now Dawn repeats the cycle. And its taken every bit of stregnth I have not to freak out, and ditch Taylor and buy into Dawns words... God, this is so fucking hard on me...Im going to go,