Why...
I sit here and think about my baby and I can't help but get sad. I try not to be sad, but I can't help it. I talked to her on the phone and things were going good, then all of a sudden we are mad at each other. I don't know how these things happen so fast, but before I even can make sense of what happened, we are fighting with each other. I hate fighting with her, it makes me cry. I'm not sure if the reason we have fought so much this week is because it is getting close to us seeing each other in person for the first time. The tension of us meeting could be the only thing I can think of that is causing us to fight. I don't want to fight with her, I don't want to hurt her. All I want is to quit hurting her. I just want to get there and make her happy like I promised her I would. I want to hug her for the first time and see her beautiful smile when I walk up to her door. I love you so much Jessie Anne Blaser. You are my life, my world, my soulmate and I will do anything to see that beautiful smile of yours in person.