promises made promises broken
so every promise that was made to me.. was pretty much broken.
I really cant take this anymore. I am so emotional
and i really really hate it. I cant be pretending anymore.
I literally broke down yesturday @ orchesis.
When i walked in and everyone was staring at me
that just did it. I felt like i had a sign over my head saying
"Look at me, My boyfriend Broke up with." I just lost it. Tears
just started pouring out. Then when everyone started asking me if
i was okay. What was i supposed to say. YAH IM AWESOME!! THANKS.
No. Because im not, im not half way okay. I am hiding all of my emotions
inside and i really cant do it anymore. Ali took me into the hallway and i just lost it again
I seriously didnt want to stop. I pulled myself together walked into the dance room and everyone
seriously like walked upto me and asked if i was okay. What was i supposed to say again. I just
looked at them and nodded quickly. It sucked when people hugged me though. I couldnt do it.
I just wish i wasnt hugging them but i was actually hugging someone else. But that wont happen.
I just wish i had answers. But i guess i will never get any.
I have ideas on why. But i dont want to get into them and i dont want to get myself going.
And hey you never know i can be wrong. I cant even listen to the radio. What the hell.
Everything i do just makes me want to scream.
The song UNTITLED by Simple Plan... right now explains my feelings.
OH and im loving KELLY CLARKSON right now.
& its not like i can just move on. I was with him for so long. Its kind of hard to just
start over with something. I guess what hurts the most is that i thought everything was going
good.. and it was just sooo sudden. Whatever. I guess i should stop over reacting.
EFF THIS....
all i ever want to do is cry. and i just cant. like i guess i have emotionally built up a wall
to block all my emotions from coming out. Its soo hard. Every Five seconds i want to just lie in my bed and cry. Whatever.
I dont want to talk about this anymore..
on another note..
tonight is senior night im so excited..
thats gonna be sad to!.
But hey im the senior now. now i dont have
to be like. uh im going to miss those seniors
next year. Because we all will be leaving together!!!
Then im shopping saturday to get more HC stuff.
and then sunday is the Chicago M. and maybe some other fun
too.. Hopefully i get it OKAYED!!!
yah!
I really cant take this anymore. I am so emotional
and i really really hate it. I cant be pretending anymore.
I literally broke down yesturday @ orchesis.
When i walked in and everyone was staring at me
that just did it. I felt like i had a sign over my head saying
"Look at me, My boyfriend Broke up with." I just lost it. Tears
just started pouring out. Then when everyone started asking me if
i was okay. What was i supposed to say. YAH IM AWESOME!! THANKS.
No. Because im not, im not half way okay. I am hiding all of my emotions
inside and i really cant do it anymore. Ali took me into the hallway and i just lost it again
I seriously didnt want to stop. I pulled myself together walked into the dance room and everyone
seriously like walked upto me and asked if i was okay. What was i supposed to say again. I just
looked at them and nodded quickly. It sucked when people hugged me though. I couldnt do it.
I just wish i wasnt hugging them but i was actually hugging someone else. But that wont happen.
I just wish i had answers. But i guess i will never get any.
I have ideas on why. But i dont want to get into them and i dont want to get myself going.
And hey you never know i can be wrong. I cant even listen to the radio. What the hell.
Everything i do just makes me want to scream.
The song UNTITLED by Simple Plan... right now explains my feelings.
OH and im loving KELLY CLARKSON right now.
& its not like i can just move on. I was with him for so long. Its kind of hard to just
start over with something. I guess what hurts the most is that i thought everything was going
good.. and it was just sooo sudden. Whatever. I guess i should stop over reacting.
EFF THIS....
all i ever want to do is cry. and i just cant. like i guess i have emotionally built up a wall
to block all my emotions from coming out. Its soo hard. Every Five seconds i want to just lie in my bed and cry. Whatever.
I dont want to talk about this anymore..
on another note..
tonight is senior night im so excited..
thats gonna be sad to!.
But hey im the senior now. now i dont have
to be like. uh im going to miss those seniors
next year. Because we all will be leaving together!!!
Then im shopping saturday to get more HC stuff.
and then sunday is the Chicago M. and maybe some other fun
too.. Hopefully i get it OKAYED!!!
yah!