Ohai.

Uh, I super suck at talking about myself in a way that sounds cool. XD I normally copy paste my about me's from other places.

I'm 21 going on 7. I am a massive kid in an adult's body. I love Anime, Hello Kitty, dressing in bright flamboyant colors, going to Walmart and rubbing items on peoples' faces along with epic lightsaber duels. I ( Read more... )

It's terrifying how I've settled into my disorder. I'm not a very good adapter. I'm a constant being, and change of any kind sends alarm bells ringing in my psyche. Even change that could be percieved as good. That being said, my openness towards my meds, feeling better about myself, being normal and trying to put a stop to how Dair affects my mood ( Read more... )

Phil has a girlfriend, and it irks at me. "Aries is possessive and jealous in the extreme", and it's true. It's really annoying cos I don't see him in that way, and the last time we had sex was absolutely disastrous. It's just in our nature to see the people we have posessed in some form as our property for awhile thereafter. It's like Dair being ( Read more... )

I'm just having a rough time atm.

I still like Dair a whole lot. I don't love him anymore. I do care about him and I still wish he'd stop trying to protect me and continue having sex with me. I understand why, it's just meh. I want sex and I don't want to have sex with Phil. I started letting go of him the day we had our final shebang. I figured, ( Read more... )

My high school choir teacher today at work. He patted my back. I needed that soo much, I legit teared up, no joke ( Read more... )

One more piece of paperwork to gooo! Also, wish me luck/ohms/vibes/prayers. I don't want today at work to be horrid. I'm there for 6 1/2 hours. D:

As you all know, I've been trying to join the Air Force for awhile now. I've just reevaluated my life and goals, and I'm unable to make a decision.

I was a music major my freshman year. I had to drop piano cos my instructor and I definitely didn't mesh well, then stopped going to class or caring. I'd been in choir for five years, and was getting ( Read more... )

When I watch Glee, I see so much of myself in Rachel. I see who I used to be, the girl who went primadonna on Smitty (my choir director) for not giving me the Outstanding Soprano award, and who was so self assured in her talent, and still kind of is. I graduated high school then went to college to be a choir teacher. I love performance. If I could ( Read more... )

I take the ASVAB Tuesday, the day Dair leaves for South Africa. ;w; I am yet again burdened by my massive lard ass and must shed 15 pounds as well as checking my credit score in hopes that my debt is less than 500 dollars. D: I'm scaaared. I want to leave this place so badly. I should have fucking listened to my ex, Mike, last year. I'm just ( Read more... )

Watching Vicious Circle. It's been awhile since I've listened to him. I loved hime when he wasn't so mainstream, but he's still funny and ridiculously sexy. I told Dair he looked like him today and he grumbled a bit. XD

Today was my Jane Austen-athon. I watched Bridget Jones' Diary, Lost in Austen, Becoming Jane, and Pride and Prejudice. I wish I  ( Read more... )