Sometimes I Disgust Myself
I've noticed something disgusting about myself, and I wish I could deny it. I will, instead, embrace the weakness I can probably never change. I'll start at the beginning. Sean is a nice guy...really he is! For some reason, however, the fact that he has a bit of weight to him has turned me off without a reasonable doubt. I am not sure why, but guys with weight..... GACK! I can't stand it. Girls with a bit of weight, however, can appear absolutely beautiful to me.
Also, it seems that, as lonely as I've been the past little while and since I started dating, I've been able to come up with ANY reason to either not date them or break up after a few dates or a few weeks. The problem is, I think, that I'm too damn picky. However, I refuse to settle or drop the bar much. I want someone with an artistic side. A brain in their head that can start great conversations without me having to start them myself and explain what every god damn big word means. A person with enough common sense not to try to appear 'pimped out' or 'gangsta' or whatever it is they do while blasting horrid Justin Timberlake shit out the sports cars their daddy's probably bought for them.
Not to mention he seems to not have anything interesting to say or a thought in his head about anything other than getting laid or video games. I WANT TO DATE AN ADULT! NOT A FREAKIN' CHILD!!!! I HAVEN'T EVEN SPECIFIED A GENDER AND I CAN'T FIND A DECENT PERSON WORTH MY TIME!!! Has the world gone completely LUNATIC?!?!?
Or is it me? Am I dooming myself to a life of utter loneliness because I can't settle for somebody?
Also, it seems that, as lonely as I've been the past little while and since I started dating, I've been able to come up with ANY reason to either not date them or break up after a few dates or a few weeks. The problem is, I think, that I'm too damn picky. However, I refuse to settle or drop the bar much. I want someone with an artistic side. A brain in their head that can start great conversations without me having to start them myself and explain what every god damn big word means. A person with enough common sense not to try to appear 'pimped out' or 'gangsta' or whatever it is they do while blasting horrid Justin Timberlake shit out the sports cars their daddy's probably bought for them.
Not to mention he seems to not have anything interesting to say or a thought in his head about anything other than getting laid or video games. I WANT TO DATE AN ADULT! NOT A FREAKIN' CHILD!!!! I HAVEN'T EVEN SPECIFIED A GENDER AND I CAN'T FIND A DECENT PERSON WORTH MY TIME!!! Has the world gone completely LUNATIC?!?!?
Or is it me? Am I dooming myself to a life of utter loneliness because I can't settle for somebody?