I am sorry for what happened. I don't know what happened. I think it's my fault, I avoided you, you got that, and you left me alone. I guess thanks, 'cause you respected my wishes, or whatever I conveyed them to be by avoiding eye contact or speech of any sort.
I don't even remember 3 years ago anymore...or 3 and a half? But I still feel bad about this. Seeing this entry again, who knows what made me hunt through other people's friends and such, makes me sad to remember what I felt like back then, that I couldn't even see you guys caring about me this much. Like I said, I don't remember much from the days we had together. That doesn't mean it meant so little to me, it's just harder for me to hold on to memories from those days, when I was that depressed.
I am sorry.
I don't know if it matters to you anymore, I don't really want to repair things or try to do things again. I tried that with someone recently, but then realized they're a complete psycho, but that's a different matter. This is purely selfish, for my own peace of mind, I hope that you see this and understand to some extent, and don't hate me.
I am sorry for what happened. I don't know what happened. I think it's my fault, I avoided you, you got that, and you left me alone. I guess thanks, 'cause you respected my wishes, or whatever I conveyed them to be by avoiding eye contact or speech of any sort.
I don't even remember 3 years ago anymore...or 3 and a half? But I still feel bad about this. Seeing this entry again, who knows what made me hunt through other people's friends and such, makes me sad to remember what I felt like back then, that I couldn't even see you guys caring about me this much. Like I said, I don't remember much from the days we had together. That doesn't mean it meant so little to me, it's just harder for me to hold on to memories from those days, when I was that depressed.
I am sorry.
I don't know if it matters to you anymore, I don't really want to repair things or try to do things again. I tried that with someone recently, but then realized they're a complete psycho, but that's a different matter. This is purely selfish, for my own peace of mind, I hope that you see this and understand to some extent, and don't hate me.
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