Searching for my friend

[niruishida]

I know you cant see this
at least not now
and probably not for a while

youre usually out sick or something, sometimes even for long periods of time
but never this long
i knew from day one, one week ago today, and i dont really think i could have done anything about it
and it finally hit me

tasha, you arent with us anymore
theres so many possibilities, i dont even want to think of them
best case scenario, you just cant get to a computer right now
worse case, you never will again

tasha, come home, call someone
tell us something

i really do love you, as much as i love any of my few close friends
i would have done anything, if i had known
but you never told me, you never told any of us
goodbye for now tashita, and i hope i get the chance to say goodbye again

in different circumstances