Comments | ninjaturtle: I'm corrupt- I wrote back good luck

ninjaturtle

I'm corrupt- I wrote back good luck

Feb 15, 2006 01:30

Ahh, priceless LJ. How long has it been? A year? More ( Read more... )

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heiderz February 15 2006, 13:14:16 UTC

miss you mark. been thinkin about you lately

mmmchaos February 15 2006, 17:20:47 UTC

bro, you better widdle those "i wish"'s down to three. y'know, in case you find a genie or something.

just being practical.

youletmedown February 15 2006, 20:57:54 UTC

A practical Chris Littler? Scary.

standing_apart March 8 2006, 10:25:10 UTC

Why do you need someone else to change you?
if you ask me, that's YOUR job.

ninjaturtle March 9 2006, 04:30:32 UTC

Prove it.

But really, i'm not looking for someone to change me, just any reason to start caring. Whether or not that happens because of someone else or because of me doesn't really matter. I'd just like to care again.

Ironically enough, i can trace this all back to just after we broke up.

Coincidence?
Most likely ;)

standing_apart March 9 2006, 10:08:32 UTC

why would you say you have no reason to care? I can think of a few reasons, and I haven't even talked to you in god knows how long.

ninjaturtle March 9 2006, 10:58:20 UTC

eh, wot?

I'm pretty sure the only people i should care about are my immediate family and friends, and i'm fairly certain that anyone who would read this knows very well i take both of those groups for granted.
Not to mention essentially everything that is ever done has no impact on anything. And since i'm going to be worthless, what's the point in being at all?
I'm having trouble with the wrestling match of convincing myself into believing things matter Vs. being another bystander in this great universe.

The latter is far more acceptable to me, whether i prefer it or not.
It's very hard to lie to myself... cause i know i'm lying... cause i'm me... and despite my attraction to myself, my roguish smile is just no match for my mental awareness... in this situation...

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summertime04 April 13 2006, 06:18:22 UTC

it seems you are open to commentary, so even though I dont really know you now, or ever really think I did, I'm going to take a leap here and say something. You can scrap it if you like ( ... )