I'm corrupt- I wrote back good luck
Ahh, priceless LJ. How long has it been? A year? More.
I always find myself turning back in times of loneliness. I'm alone. I have no other outlets. What do you expect? I'm no better or worse than I've ever been. Still lonely. Still alone. If you can't help yourself and you're not helping someone else and no one's helping you, what do you do? What an enjoyable feeling of helplessness.
I'm such a weiner.
What do I even want anymore? It's not what I thought.
I wish there was an unbiased force in my life to talk to.
I would daresay it helps my situation that I hate who I am. If only that would spur me to change. If only it mattered. It does matter. It doesn't matter.
Fuck
Me
I wish I had a heart left. Not just hollow compassion. Not just how I should be.
I wish I wish. I wish I would bother to count up how many times I've said 'I wish' in my head- hell, even in LJ, so that I'd stop saying it.
Fuck
Me
I never thought I'd get this bad or this pathetic. Life just has a way of being real.
I always find myself turning back in times of loneliness. I'm alone. I have no other outlets. What do you expect? I'm no better or worse than I've ever been. Still lonely. Still alone. If you can't help yourself and you're not helping someone else and no one's helping you, what do you do? What an enjoyable feeling of helplessness.
I'm such a weiner.
What do I even want anymore? It's not what I thought.
I wish there was an unbiased force in my life to talk to.
I would daresay it helps my situation that I hate who I am. If only that would spur me to change. If only it mattered. It does matter. It doesn't matter.
Fuck
Me
I wish I had a heart left. Not just hollow compassion. Not just how I should be.
I wish I wish. I wish I would bother to count up how many times I've said 'I wish' in my head- hell, even in LJ, so that I'd stop saying it.
Fuck
Me
I never thought I'd get this bad or this pathetic. Life just has a way of being real.