I just realized something.
Andrew is the reason I can't handle distance anymore.
I used to be quite good at long-distance relationships, as many of you may remember. Whether they were actually long-distance or just temporarily so when one of us left for a while, I was always fine with it. I never really pined for anyone if it was just a short period of time.
Then Andrew happened. And when one day he just flipped a switch, and continued to change his mind as to what was going on according to whether or not he was around me, that messed me up.
God, everything leads back to this. That's why I miss Daniel so much. That's why I don't want to travel when he's not here. That's why I'm so insecure about us when I'm away from him. I have no reason to be, he's never given me one... we get along perfectly. But now I'm all freaked out about being away from the person I'm with. I'm afraid that one day Daniel will wake up, like Andrew did, and decide that he is going to take back everything he's ever said to me. Silly as that is. I can't help it.
*kicks Andrew*
I used to be quite good at long-distance relationships, as many of you may remember. Whether they were actually long-distance or just temporarily so when one of us left for a while, I was always fine with it. I never really pined for anyone if it was just a short period of time.
Then Andrew happened. And when one day he just flipped a switch, and continued to change his mind as to what was going on according to whether or not he was around me, that messed me up.
God, everything leads back to this. That's why I miss Daniel so much. That's why I don't want to travel when he's not here. That's why I'm so insecure about us when I'm away from him. I have no reason to be, he's never given me one... we get along perfectly. But now I'm all freaked out about being away from the person I'm with. I'm afraid that one day Daniel will wake up, like Andrew did, and decide that he is going to take back everything he's ever said to me. Silly as that is. I can't help it.
*kicks Andrew*