A Love once Lost
I tried to leave
You called me back
I tried to stay
You pushed me away
Seriously, if there's one thing that I can say about myself, it's that I'm loyal. I always seem to put others happiness above my own, and as a result I don't think I know how to make myself truly happy anymore. Sure I can fake it like no one's business, but I'll always come back to the sad little me.
All I want is to be able to stick with one set of feelings for someone, and be able to tell them how I feel. However, when the feelings finally settle on real romantic feelings, as soon as I start to word them, they start to backtrack. I think deep down, I'm afraid of love and this is my way of avoiding that fear. It would have to be based on my fear of failure, and the feeling that I would fail anyone I got into a relationship with. Fear of rejection is also a huge factor as well.
I just want to be able to get over that to tell her that I love her and I just want to be with her.