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When I think back to how much my life has changed in the past year I am damn proud of myself for doing what I did, but then I wonder if maybe I should have slowed down. I didn't want to be where I was but now that I'm gone I kinda wish I was back. I also kinda wish for the simpler times of no responsibility and not reporting to someone, but I can't imagine my life without all the independence and acceptance I've gained since then. I really am at that point where my life is kinda pulling me along and I'm not exactly sure where I can be in reference to where I want to be. Its so hard to become what you've aspired for right after college, but then I'm glad I'm getting my low ranks done while I'm still young enough. I enjoy my steady paycheck and schedule, and there's just a sensation I receive whenever I write a check for a bill or pay off my credit cards. Its not a feeling of pain (although some months are tight) its a feeling of accomplishment.Its a feeling to let me know that what I am doing, what I have been doing is really paying (no pun intended) off, or so I really hope.
I've got many changes for myself, my job, and my relationship coming up in the near future, I only hope I can handle it!
*Speaking of envy in my last post, this entry was kinda self-centered wasn't it? Eh its all part of the 7 deadly sins...
I've got many changes for myself, my job, and my relationship coming up in the near future, I only hope I can handle it!
*Speaking of envy in my last post, this entry was kinda self-centered wasn't it? Eh its all part of the 7 deadly sins...