HP/SPN: Touched by an Angel (Harry/Castiel)
Title: Touched by an Angel (XIV)
Author: nilitara
Fandom: HP, SPN
Rating: PG
Charaters: Harry, Castiel
Summary: Castiel is told of his punishment.
For: crossovers100
Prompt: 033. Too much.
Disclaimer: The characters are the property of their respective creator. I own nothing.
Touched by an Angel - Main entry
033. Too much.
As Castiel made his way back to Heaven, he already knew what the meeting with his Lord would bring. He knew exactly the reason he had been called and how the conversation would end. He was reluctant to go, wanting to delay the inevitable just a little bit longer, but it would only anger his Lord further and it was the very last thing he wanted. His Lord was everything to him or, at least, he was supposed to be.
Yet, it was something he had been beginning to doubt. In the last few years, he had begun to want to put Harry first and his Lord second and it was something he had proved a few moments ago, when he committed the transgression of kissing the soft lips of his sleeping charge, wanting to soothe the nightmares he was stuck in at any cost.
This was the very reason he was commanded back to Heaven. An angel could not be allowed to place anything about his Lord and he had done it. That transgression was going to be punished and the only thing he could do about it was hope he would not fall from grace, that his Lord would be merciful.
He didn’t have to wonder for very long for, as soon as he arrived, he received audience and was soon facing his Lord. He was ready to beg for mercy but knew inside his heart and soul it would do no good. His Lord was good, He was loving, but his decisions always went without appeal and angel didn’t have the liberty of free will. They could not discuss any order or decision and whatever his Lord chose as a suitable punishment for his deed would be carried out without a single moment of deliberation.
He listened as his Lord talked, his mind clouded by the fear of the answer to the question he had been asking himself but knowing he could not avoid it. He listened as the Lord dressed a list of his offenses. His latest in date had been the one to tip the balance, the one that forced his Lord to carry a punishment, but it was by far not the first time Castiel had done something against his mission’s orders to help out Harry. It was the only one that was unforgivable.
His Lord would forgive him, though, because such was his nature. It didn’t mean the action would go unpunished. Castiel had to atone for his sin but he it would not make the Lord’s love toward him diminish. He would just be unable to do whatever he wanted to anymore. There was one restriction, and one only, but this restriction was almost enough to break Castiel’s heart.
It hurt, it hurt so much, but he kept his mouth shut and only nodded in deference and acceptance, showing he accepted judgment and punishment both. It would be hard, it would be hell for quite a while but, in the end, he had no choice and could only pray the pain would diminish with time, even though he doubted it.
He bowed his head, waiting for his Lord to dismiss him and, after only a few more instants, he did. Castiel was about to leave to go back to his duties when the Lord called him back and, in a final act of mercy, granted him the permission for something he thought impossible. It was not an annulment of the sentence, but it was enough to ease the sting just a bit.
He was granted a wish, a wish he hadn’t even realized he had, and while it was nice and merciful, it was also the most heartbreaking thing in his long life. And as Castiel went back to Privet Drive for the very last time, his punishment echoed in his mind.
“Your punishment, Castiel, will be a formal interdiction to ever see Harry James Potter again until the day he dies.”