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Wow Oh Wow, it has been forever since i have updated in this thing. Let's see since last time i wrote in here i have had a baby(that is now 7 whole months old, time flies), Sims has come to true salvation (thats a long story that i wont go into in here, but anyway Sims is a true Brother now though everyone thought he was before he just hadnt truly accepted Jesus Christ), and i have grown in Christ sooooo much(actually i have surrendered my life completely and utterly to Him, though i dont know where He is taking me, it will be for His purpose and glory). It's been a rollercoaster some of the time, but Christ used all of that to make me what i am now, and Praise Him for that. It's wierd how each day that you are with the Lord grows sweeter and sweeter. Ohh yes, my dear adopted grandmother, Sybol, who taught me so much in the Lord and was just awesome all over passed away last Wed. night. I know she is with the Lord, but i still miss her so much. She had had a long fight with cancer. I did not attend the funeral, God didn't give me a peace about going and Sims and i washed my cell phone (yes a full cycle, it is ruined) so we had to go get another one (i have no insurance and those things are expensive unless you get a contract with it which i already have). I ended up buying the guy who was workings old phone for 35 dollars and guess what? it may not look as good as my other one, but it works a ton better, plus i already knew how to work it basically because it is just like my old phone except this one is bigger and has no camera, which is so not a prob for me, a phone is a phone (i dont like talking on them unless i just have to anyways lol). So anyways we had to get that taken care of due to Sims new job. He is in training and is gone all week long. Yes ALL week! It's been hard but this is the last week. He is going to be a correctional officer at a prison (the pay is much better though it sounds scary, he is being trained to use teamwork and how to defend himself). I have to at least be able to talk to him. God has grown us both a lot through this time. Tomorrow he has to experience "being gased." It is a pepper gas (tear gas) that he will have to walk through...EEEEKKK. Sounds terrible, i will be praying for him all day tomorrow for that (not that i dont normally, but esp for that). God is showing me so many things. Sims and i have just about decided to go to homeschool next year. There is just so much evil and we feel like we need to protect our chilrens innocence. We feel that there are other ways to teach them socialization. Everything they learn needs to be Bible based. Our entire lifes should revolve around Christ, but yet we send our children to a place for 8-9 hours a day and just trust that the world is teaching them good things. How can we instill values like that? God has laid this so heavily on our hearts. We did some reaseach and studies show that Christ based homeschooled kids make higher scores than public and private schools. I am so nervous about it, and dont feel like i can do it, but God gives us grace and strength to do that which He has called us to do. I have a friend Tammy that is homeschooling her kids and will be a great help to me. I will esp need help with the socialization part. I will have to find ways to get my kids out and about and having relationships...i think im gonna be one busy momma. But i am eager. Ohh yes, i also got a new puppy in the time i havent got on here. His name is Jaq and he is a lil rat terrier and he is soo cute. Andrea (my pastors wife and a good friend to me) are about to start a study. She is coming over Thursday night. I think its gonna be awesome. Doing what Christ calls you to do is always awesome. I just cant get over how much God has grown me in the past lil bit. It amazes me to see how far God has carried me and the way i have changed. I would never go back to what i was. My Stitch (Sabre) is about to be 3 years old. I cant believe it. Well on the 18th he will be. He keeps things interesting that is for sure. I have been doing the Parelli program with Buddy and my dads horse Butterfly lately as well. Buddy and I are doing the driving game. YAY!!!!! I'm so excited. This horse started out terrified of the stick. But now we are driving...(well take in mind just starting, its not real pretty or smooth or anything). God will teach you a lot through just playing with horses, sometimes they are so human like it scares me. And then you think, ohh dear and to think i do my Saviour this way. It's really insane. But God gives victory to those who seek it out through Him. I am just so excited to serve Christ that i cant help but fill up with joy everytime i think about it. God's Word is so powerful and it will change you (provided you dont go and try to change it, let it just say what it says and change your own self). Well i think im through writing though that is not near of everything that has happened or even near of what i have built up inside of me that i prolly should write out so that my emotion doesnt build up and explode, but its good emotion mostly. Though some things have been weighing me down a bit, but there is no need to write them all out here, i will simply take them to Christ and let Him handle them. When things keep bothering you, keep on taking it to Christ and let go. If it pops back up in your mind, take it back to Christ, He can handle it, and He wants us to do so. What awesome love He has for us!!! Maybe i will not forget about this thing and write some more sometime (lol, though its not likely due to my ADHD self lol)