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So Dani and Danger are now in NJ. For those of you that do not know, Dani and I decided it's more financially sound to have her go back now and have her folks watch Dnager during the day while she works. She couldn't do it here because of the costs of childcare. But its not as bad as if I were deployed, we can talk everyday. So if you wanna see Danger or Dani you can. He's gotten big, you'd think he was 2, which if you didn't know he was only ! you'd think he was mentally undeveloped for his seemingly age of 2 lol. But I think I miss him the most. I miss Danielle in a different way, while she is the other half of my life, Danger is the product of our love(i know, gay).
So, I am under a federal investigation. As some of you know there was a jet crash in San Diego last December. That jet came from my squadron. Since then they've kept a close watch on things. I am an inspector of other people's work on the jets due to my knowledge and experience(it's called being a CDI). And as a CDI I am ultimatly responsible on the quality of work being done, well you're only supposed to have 1 CDI per job, but I was the only one working a couple fridays ago(we have 4 total but the others were gone) so I was on 6 different jobs just floating around. Well on one job another quality assurance rep found damage that he says I should have caught. Well the officers made a big stink about it and has NCIS investigating me. Oh well, I was luckily able to get 7 other guys off the hook, they were just new guys that don't know any better. And I have the support of most of my chain of command. Either way I'm not only fighting it, I am stomping it into the ground.
There is a newish show on cartoon network called Batman the brave and the bold. It's kind of like an omage to the old style comics with current themes. But its incredible. There was this one episode where Batman goes to an alternate Earth, he returns to his world only to find his evil counterpart owlman has tarnished his name and Batman is forced to team up with the joker. It was a fantastic episode, I hope you all get a chance to watch it, the joker was incredibly written.
Remember that jet crash I mentioned? Well it has been haunting me every day. I was not responsible for why it crashed, but I lead the team that sorted through the debris, and everytime I shut my eyes I can only see the burnt clothes and toys of the 2 littles girls that died in the crash. I sifted through family album and picture frames, all kinds of things that I'm sure meant a lot to that family. And all we had to find was the little black box. I don't know why it effects me so bad, I didn't know them and it wasn't my fault. I feel so bad for the families one survivor.
I have never thought I needed to deal with my negative feelings, my mother taught me how to be the rock upon which people can depend upon which hardened me to such things. I'll admit I've had some weak moments and have at one point contemplated suicided. But I've guarded those moments carefully. But recently I've begun to feel for other people and it makes me feel bad. I am not sure if this is sympathy or empathy. But I can normally just supress these feelings before they ever come up, but now more and more as time goes on I feel for people. It's almost enough to overwhelm me. Luckily I am so full of myself my ego would not allow it to happen lol.
I am so ready to get out of the military though, I can taste the freedom just a scant 5 months in the distance.
So, I am under a federal investigation. As some of you know there was a jet crash in San Diego last December. That jet came from my squadron. Since then they've kept a close watch on things. I am an inspector of other people's work on the jets due to my knowledge and experience(it's called being a CDI). And as a CDI I am ultimatly responsible on the quality of work being done, well you're only supposed to have 1 CDI per job, but I was the only one working a couple fridays ago(we have 4 total but the others were gone) so I was on 6 different jobs just floating around. Well on one job another quality assurance rep found damage that he says I should have caught. Well the officers made a big stink about it and has NCIS investigating me. Oh well, I was luckily able to get 7 other guys off the hook, they were just new guys that don't know any better. And I have the support of most of my chain of command. Either way I'm not only fighting it, I am stomping it into the ground.
There is a newish show on cartoon network called Batman the brave and the bold. It's kind of like an omage to the old style comics with current themes. But its incredible. There was this one episode where Batman goes to an alternate Earth, he returns to his world only to find his evil counterpart owlman has tarnished his name and Batman is forced to team up with the joker. It was a fantastic episode, I hope you all get a chance to watch it, the joker was incredibly written.
Remember that jet crash I mentioned? Well it has been haunting me every day. I was not responsible for why it crashed, but I lead the team that sorted through the debris, and everytime I shut my eyes I can only see the burnt clothes and toys of the 2 littles girls that died in the crash. I sifted through family album and picture frames, all kinds of things that I'm sure meant a lot to that family. And all we had to find was the little black box. I don't know why it effects me so bad, I didn't know them and it wasn't my fault. I feel so bad for the families one survivor.
I have never thought I needed to deal with my negative feelings, my mother taught me how to be the rock upon which people can depend upon which hardened me to such things. I'll admit I've had some weak moments and have at one point contemplated suicided. But I've guarded those moments carefully. But recently I've begun to feel for other people and it makes me feel bad. I am not sure if this is sympathy or empathy. But I can normally just supress these feelings before they ever come up, but now more and more as time goes on I feel for people. It's almost enough to overwhelm me. Luckily I am so full of myself my ego would not allow it to happen lol.
I am so ready to get out of the military though, I can taste the freedom just a scant 5 months in the distance.