Yay More Depression!

Apr 23, 2009 16:19

So I talked to my Mom today and the vet is starting Ludwig down his path to not being with us anymore.  I guess he's been getting worse.  His tummy has been really screwed up and when he's walking he'll just collapse.  My Mom couldn't give me too much info because it was too hard for her to get anything out, but I learned that my brother and his wife are going to come get him one day soon and take care of everything.  I asked her if she and my dad are going to be there with him and she said they just can't do it and this is probably the last and only thing I'm going to hear on the subject for a long while.  So that was super devastating because not only is my doggy going to possibly die with only strangers around him, I don't know what the hell is going on and won't know.  Hell, I may not even know when he dies.  So I wrote my brother an email and asked him to tell me what the hell is going on and to please be there with him when he goes because I can't be there.  I have no idea how that's going to go.  Like I said, I understand why it's too hard for my parents to watch him die, but....letting him die alone is just crap.  A part of me wants to tell them that but I know they feel bad enough as it is and I don't want to make it worse.  So I just have to hope my brother will do as I ask and in the meantime sob until it's all over.  This fucking blows.
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