My Dream has been one of the best loves I've ever had
Yesterday
my dream of studying in Franklin College Switzerland for my 4 years of college
died.
I got accepted
but unfortunately, FASFA doesnt really do shit for it
and ...it's just too expensive
and so, it died
died before we could ever have that happy ending
my dream...was like a lover to me
I wanted my dream so bad.
only my dream
i adored and did my best to protect it.
I ignored criticism because I believed in it
and when it died,
i wanted to die.
not going to lie but....I was really..distraught last night
i was ready to jump ship
because i know im worthless
and my future is once again unstable
the ONE FUCKING DREAM I HAD
died.
I loved that dream
and it can never come back
I dont think i'll get another dream
nope
never again.
I will never dream again.
The only difference between love with people and with my dream
is that I wish I never knew about it
I don't think people who've lost loved ones wish they never met them
but at least they had good times
I never got much
Now, I'm really confused and scared
some friends tell me i shouldnt give up
but i've done the math and its fucking logic that i wont get to fulfill it
sure maybe one day i can go there
but....its not the same
ugh i dont feel like explaining it. but just trust me on this one
its not happening.
my dream of studying in Franklin College Switzerland for my 4 years of college
died.
I got accepted
but unfortunately, FASFA doesnt really do shit for it
and ...it's just too expensive
and so, it died
died before we could ever have that happy ending
my dream...was like a lover to me
I wanted my dream so bad.
only my dream
i adored and did my best to protect it.
I ignored criticism because I believed in it
and when it died,
i wanted to die.
not going to lie but....I was really..distraught last night
i was ready to jump ship
because i know im worthless
and my future is once again unstable
the ONE FUCKING DREAM I HAD
died.
I loved that dream
and it can never come back
I dont think i'll get another dream
nope
never again.
I will never dream again.
The only difference between love with people and with my dream
is that I wish I never knew about it
I don't think people who've lost loved ones wish they never met them
but at least they had good times
I never got much
Now, I'm really confused and scared
some friends tell me i shouldnt give up
but i've done the math and its fucking logic that i wont get to fulfill it
sure maybe one day i can go there
but....its not the same
ugh i dont feel like explaining it. but just trust me on this one
its not happening.