When it rains it pours...
It seems like when I'm unhappy with one aspect of my life, things tend to snowball for me.
I'm so happy for Olivia and Trevor that they are expecting again, but it makes me think about how much I would like that for myself. I know that the time isn't right for it, but it still makes me sad and that makes it so much tougher to be happy for her. I don't want to say the wrong thing and upset her but I don't want her to think that I'm not happy for her because I am. I know how it feels to want something so very much and see people around you getting it and not be able to help but feel sad that you don't.
And I really do hate my job. I can't quit till I find something else, but I really need to get on the ball about finding something else before I drive myself insane...and at this point I don't think insane is going to be a very far trip. My boss is a condescending asshole who thinks that he is doing his employees a favor by providing us with a measley paycheck...bullshit! I know I can find another job, and I need to start putting all of my resources into looking instead of waiting for soemthing to come to me.
There are so many things in my mind right now, I just want to run away from it all. Far away where I can just start over and not have to worry so much about all that hurts me and brings me down.
Where is my happy ending?
I'm so happy for Olivia and Trevor that they are expecting again, but it makes me think about how much I would like that for myself. I know that the time isn't right for it, but it still makes me sad and that makes it so much tougher to be happy for her. I don't want to say the wrong thing and upset her but I don't want her to think that I'm not happy for her because I am. I know how it feels to want something so very much and see people around you getting it and not be able to help but feel sad that you don't.
And I really do hate my job. I can't quit till I find something else, but I really need to get on the ball about finding something else before I drive myself insane...and at this point I don't think insane is going to be a very far trip. My boss is a condescending asshole who thinks that he is doing his employees a favor by providing us with a measley paycheck...bullshit! I know I can find another job, and I need to start putting all of my resources into looking instead of waiting for soemthing to come to me.
There are so many things in my mind right now, I just want to run away from it all. Far away where I can just start over and not have to worry so much about all that hurts me and brings me down.
Where is my happy ending?