Ya ya ya...
this weekend wasnt the best weekend ive had.....friday i drove to the mall.. which i thought was wicked excited until like everyone started to make me nervous...and then i went down hill from there. saturday was good until the point i got attack by a dog.. which isnt good.. iit killed like a bitch! and mike thinks if i put ice on it then the pain will go away but i kno it wont so i argued with him about it! lol.. i really dont kno whats wrong with me anymore.. like rite now i juss dont want to deal with anyone.. and like i take out alot of shit that is bothering me on my bf or my mom.. and i kno its not fair to them. i actually scared.. the more im with helder they more i get scared to lose him.. and i cant afford to have another broken heart i dont think i would be able to handel it... but to tell ya the truth i dont think he will.. i really do believe that he loves me and he does show it. then why am i still so very scared????? can someone please answer me that. i try not let it get to me and like some days and then other days i dont think about it at all.. i need to stop thinking when it comes to some stuff lol.. i really do love him! I love being with him and how he makes me feel.. its a feeling that i have never had before. Im in love... its kinda a scary thing lol but u wanna kno something he is risk worth taken.. :) like thrusday night we were watching the clay akin special and he like looked at me and said Promise me i wont lose u... no one has never said that to me in my life.. it made me feel so good juss to kno how much he loves me...so baby if u read this im wicked sorry for yellin at u today.. I LOVE U ALOT!
Im worried about my mom.. like i can tell that she is gettin depressed and im trying everything in my power to keep her out of it. but i dont think its working. she doesnt want to be in teh christmas spirit.. and like thats not like her, she is always in the christmas spirit. i really dont want her to go in teh hospital becuz i miss her way to much.. i kno it will make her feel better but why cant she juss stay here and let me n mel help her get better? i miss her being into the christmas spirit.. i miss everything.. i need someone to talk to.. i dont think she understands that if she is depressed than i am too.. and like its a vibe thing and im soo feeling the vibe.... and i want it to go away!.... well im outie.. bye
Im worried about my mom.. like i can tell that she is gettin depressed and im trying everything in my power to keep her out of it. but i dont think its working. she doesnt want to be in teh christmas spirit.. and like thats not like her, she is always in the christmas spirit. i really dont want her to go in teh hospital becuz i miss her way to much.. i kno it will make her feel better but why cant she juss stay here and let me n mel help her get better? i miss her being into the christmas spirit.. i miss everything.. i need someone to talk to.. i dont think she understands that if she is depressed than i am too.. and like its a vibe thing and im soo feeling the vibe.... and i want it to go away!.... well im outie.. bye