I love acting and I love my old acting professor, but I can’t talk to my old acting professor.
He really makes me question my dreams far more than I’d like. I apparently came very, very close to being cast in my university’s play. I had to interview him for the paper today (journalism, the dream I’m actively going after), and he said that he had wanted to talk to me anyway. He told me how freaking good I am. Ugh, this happens every time I talk to him. He always makes me want to be an actress. Which would be great if acting was a stable job with a steady income that didn’t require me to look like a fucking model.
Not even basically, he flat out said that I'm good and I understand a lot more than other actors about how to read lines and I have a really good intuition. He said he didn't want to push me into an acting minor, but he really thought that I was good and that I should definitely try again next year. And it's just like UGH! How the fuck am I supposed to know what to do with my life? I mean I'm 19 years old! Why do you make kids pick one thing! I can barely decide on my outfit for the day but apparently I'm supposed to know what I want to do with my whole entire life! I'm a writer. I love writing. I'm not questioning that. But what about acting? I mean, I dreamed of that long before I could write, before I even knew what it meant.
Storytelling, that's what I love to do. To entertain people. Make people feel something. That's what I want to do with my life. It's just a matter of how....
Also, I kinda wish I had the desire to do something that actually made a lot of money. Too bad the math/science side of my brain doesn't function.
Not even basically, he flat out said that I'm good and I understand a lot more than other actors about how to read lines and I have a really good intuition. He said he didn't want to push me into an acting minor, but he really thought that I was good and that I should definitely try again next year. And it's just like UGH! How the fuck am I supposed to know what to do with my life? I mean I'm 19 years old! Why do you make kids pick one thing! I can barely decide on my outfit for the day but apparently I'm supposed to know what I want to do with my whole entire life! I'm a writer. I love writing. I'm not questioning that. But what about acting? I mean, I dreamed of that long before I could write, before I even knew what it meant.
Storytelling, that's what I love to do. To entertain people. Make people feel something. That's what I want to do with my life. It's just a matter of how....
Also, I kinda wish I had the desire to do something that actually made a lot of money. Too bad the math/science side of my brain doesn't function.