Don't I know it! lol I went through a lot of unhealthy relationships which have taught me to be grateful for this one.
But there is nothing wrong with being single or just dating around! It gives you time to focus all of your energy on yourself so that you're at your best once you do meet someone.
Plus isnt there some guy you talk about sometimes? :) Name starts with a 'J' I think....
Gah. Yes. It's odd that I want to relate to people on LJ but tend to want to keep the guy who I can actually meet in person for coffee at a distance. It's the commitment. *sigh* I.. gah, I don't know. There's a wall of stuff I could write a million reasons why I feel blocked on. Most of which would vanish the moment we actually started going out, because it's imaginary. Maybe.
Bugger it, I don't care. I'm single and I live in front of my computer and right now I find penises annoying.
I know exactly what you're saying! I was such a commitment phobe that I became a serial dater. If I thought a guy was getting too close then I would break up with him. And the couple of times that I did fall in love, it was always with the asshole who treated me like crap. I finally made a conscious decision to just be single. I was so tired of juggling guys and their bs and my own bs. It was overwhelming and was taking up too much of my mental energy. Of course, in the middle of that I ran into Tyler lol. Being single is underrated and boys, for the most part, are highly overrated!
I was so confused when you said it was Ty in the pic I went to your profile to check the captions next to your pics and saw, nope, it's you and your name is not Ty, it's Nikki. Then I went back through your journal (so pretty!) and came back here and saw the icon atop of this comment. DOH.
Hehe.
Oh dear, you're one-a those girls who never stops dating and smooching around with boys. WAaaaah. I am not like that. I used to be more active with guys than I am now though. I have actually got it in me to be quite the relationship-type of girl. Well, woman.. now. Shit. See, that holds me back. I don't know what's expected of me any more. It's all too weird and complicated by feelings about my teeth and my body. My ED has made me quite strange in that I don't really enjoy being physically caressed. I would want to smack a guy who caressed my soft parts. I am in the process of turning all that into muscle. I'll see how I feel when I'm done. At least Jamal compliments me on looking toned... I guess.
YES! I was the worst kind of serial dater and smoocher. Never a serial sexer though, thank God! lol It seems like you're taking time now to focus on your health so maybe its a good thing that you just have a casual situation going.
Don't feel bad. I don't think any of us really know whats expected when it comes to dating. I'm not a natural "serious" relationship person because I have a hard time with trust (daddy issues alert lol). I would always just do what I wanted in a relationship, and not really consider the other person's wants and needs. So my current relationship is me making it up as I go along and just doing what feels right. Thankfully, my relationship is built on good communication so my boyfriend doesn't mind if I freak out, get frustrated, or just walk around lost and confused. lol
Does this guy Jamal know everything that you're going through with your ED? And I need the irrelevant girly details! lol Is he cute? What does he do? How long have you been talk to him?
Well, don't worry - there isn't a need for you to mimic a perfect relationship. Relationship means relating, to a person, who gradually will become aware of and define themselves as a unique being in relation to others. You can't do it wrong. You like and dislike things about people, and sometimes, gosh darn it, you love them! Love can mean accepting things you dislike about people. It's not like any of us are or should expect others to be "perfect" or conform to our every wish. If you accept the things your boyfriend does, I'm sure he is so happy to be able to be himself with you that he accepts you the way you are too. In time even the weirdest traits can become familiar and loveable. And luckily, sometimes we can change in a relationship, like a rough stone smoothing out its edges, so things roll along nicely
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*jealous but happy for ya*
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But there is nothing wrong with being single or just dating around! It gives you time to focus all of your energy on yourself so that you're at your best once you do meet someone.
Plus isnt there some guy you talk about sometimes? :) Name starts with a 'J' I think....
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Bugger it, I don't care. I'm single and I live in front of my computer and right now I find penises annoying.
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ps. that's Ty in the user pic :)
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Hehe.
Oh dear, you're one-a those girls who never stops dating and smooching around with boys. WAaaaah. I am not like that. I used to be more active with guys than I am now though. I have actually got it in me to be quite the relationship-type of girl. Well, woman.. now. Shit. See, that holds me back. I don't know what's expected of me any more. It's all too weird and complicated by feelings about my teeth and my body. My ED has made me quite strange in that I don't really enjoy being physically caressed. I would want to smack a guy who caressed my soft parts. I am in the process of turning all that into muscle. I'll see how I feel when I'm done. At least Jamal compliments me on looking toned... I guess.
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YES! I was the worst kind of serial dater and smoocher. Never a serial sexer though, thank God! lol It seems like you're taking time now to focus on your health so maybe its a good thing that you just have a casual situation going.
Don't feel bad. I don't think any of us really know whats expected when it comes to dating. I'm not a natural "serious" relationship person because I have a hard time with trust (daddy issues alert lol). I would always just do what I wanted in a relationship, and not really consider the other person's wants and needs. So my current relationship is me making it up as I go along and just doing what feels right. Thankfully, my relationship is built on good communication so my boyfriend doesn't mind if I freak out, get frustrated, or just walk around lost and confused. lol
Does this guy Jamal know everything that you're going through with your ED? And I need the irrelevant girly details! lol Is he cute? What does he do? How long have you been talk to him?
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