You coming over here?
So, this week has been virtual hell.
I don't know what wrong with my mother-- but she's picking on me. And it's getting annoying. Well... not annoying, but... tedious. I want her to leave me alone, now. I don't know what I did. I just lost the next 3 days on the phone because I answered it, but why was a banned from the phone in the first place? I don't know.
And besides that, is this situation I'm having at school. That really no one understands. Not even Courtney, because I dont even understand it enough to know. I'm getting upset about it. And it's really out-of-character for me to care about these things. It's honestly killing me inside. I thought I was over it today, but then, it all came back again. It' personally embarrasing. It's really just all coming back to this stupid crush thing. But it's not so much that anymore, and really, since the beginning of The New Crush Era [refer to The Book of E], it hasn't been.
Before, it was just that. A crush. A short, meaningless squee. And now... I guess it's just a symptom of age. That sex is an immediately conscious part of the equation.
I've dissected that to hell.
I want to go see what Wanye is getting into this weekend. Jesus.
I don't know what wrong with my mother-- but she's picking on me. And it's getting annoying. Well... not annoying, but... tedious. I want her to leave me alone, now. I don't know what I did. I just lost the next 3 days on the phone because I answered it, but why was a banned from the phone in the first place? I don't know.
And besides that, is this situation I'm having at school. That really no one understands. Not even Courtney, because I dont even understand it enough to know. I'm getting upset about it. And it's really out-of-character for me to care about these things. It's honestly killing me inside. I thought I was over it today, but then, it all came back again. It' personally embarrasing. It's really just all coming back to this stupid crush thing. But it's not so much that anymore, and really, since the beginning of The New Crush Era [refer to The Book of E], it hasn't been.
Before, it was just that. A crush. A short, meaningless squee. And now... I guess it's just a symptom of age. That sex is an immediately conscious part of the equation.
I've dissected that to hell.
I want to go see what Wanye is getting into this weekend. Jesus.