update time...
where to begin...i dont even know. i could start off with things that have pissed me off, certain people that have pissed me off, lost respect for people, people who i thought were cool and now i think are two faced...yah doing a little batman reference (awesome movie by the way) and doing things behind my back and doesnt help when a certain someone better not have been trying to hide it from me. the only way i found out about stuff like this is cuz i have like a sixth sense for stupid shit like this. i just know. and more often than not im right. so when i find stuff out its never in the best way. but i'd rather not talk about all that crap. im a fairly reasonable man. i can take things in stride. so i'll be the better man and do what i do to watch out for myself and those closest to me. so all of you people with your hiding and keeping shit from me and having no respect towards me...just watch out cuz that shit will come back around. im not trying to be cliche or saying i'll be doing what was done to me but i do believe in treating people the way you want to be treated and by doing good and being good towards others. having a certain trust in people. knowing that no harm can come from them. but i only feel that way about a handful of people now. so dont act suprised when you feel like i dont trust you. thats all i have to say about that. no need for details so moving on. lets try to get on more positive notes. well i wanted to save this for last but its all im thinking about. as of now, im under review for getting an apartment. so hopefully i'll be getting a call in a couple days telling me that i got the place. i think its a pretty nice place for the price that it is. its like the cheapest 2 bedroom place around. so i really hope i can get it. cuz then i can start focusing on starting to live on my own. paying bills, paying for everything i need to live like a new car. basically becoming a grown man. im both excited and scared. excited cuz its taken me forever to find a decent place at a reasonable price. and im scared cuz i dont want to be in the same position and in the same apartment for a long time. this is meant to be a stepping stone. something to build on. at the same time i dont want to work myself up and think im finally moving out cuz i havent officially gotten the place. so if i just stay calm and collective and cool about it i'll be less upset if i dont get it. albeit i will still be upset. oh man, i cant believe i almost forgot about going to Las Vegas. that was pretty fun even though i wasnt 21. which means you cant gamble or go to the clubs and stuff cuz to get in you gotta pay for a drink. so i missed out on all the real fun. but me and tony still found ways to have fun by ditching our parents and just venturing on our own on the strip. we did however get to see a topless show. it was fun. our hotel was the excalibur which was pretty cool looking. everything there was cool. i definitely want to go back when i turn 21...which is in like 5 to 6 months. well im hitting a road block and i definitely have more to update on but thats all for now. peace