i cant stand the rain
I HAVE NEVER BEEN ONE TO ENJOY THE RAIN. AT LEAST NOT FOR 8 DAYS. ONE DAY IS FINE. HECK I'D PREFER JUST AN HOUR. BUT ALL THIS RAIN AND CLOUDS AND NO SUN IS MAKING ME NUTS. ITS HARD ENOUGH TO BE HAPPY AT THIS POINT IN MY LIFE BUT THE CONSTANT DEPRESSING RAIN IS ABOUT TO PUSH ME OVER BOARD. I WISH MY FRIENDS WERNT ALL BROKEN SO I COULD HANG OUT WITH SOMEONE. BC SERIOUSLY I AM FEELING BAD. AND I FEEL SELFISH FOR BEING THIS WAY BUT I CANT SNAP OUT OF IT.
AND THEN THERES MY WEIGHT ISSUE. I KNOW NO ONE LIKES TO HEAR ABOUT THIS TOPIC BUT I KNOW ITS IN ALL OF OUR MINDS. I KEEP BEING HAUNTED BY MY PAST PICTURES AND THINKING WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED. AND THERES ANOTHER REASON FOR BEING MAD, SAD AND DEPRESSED. I LOOK LIKE UTER SHIT. FAT UNGLY BLOB. AND ALL I THINK ABOUT WHEN I SEE PEOPLE IS THAT THEY ARE THINKING HOW FAT I AM. I REALLY WANT TO CHANGE BUT LOOKING AT THE BIG PICTURE I FEEL LIKE THE MOUNTAIN IS TOO BIG TO CLIMB AND THAT ITS HOPLESS. I BOUGHT A WORKOUT BIKE, I HAVE BOOT CAMP, AND A BALL. I DONT USE ANY. (DONT TELL JAKE) I REALLY NEED TO FIND SOMETHING THAT WILL MOTIVATE ME TO DO IT. I FEEL SO MUCH LIKE I CANT. THAT ITS TO HARD. PLUS I AM AN EMOTIONAL EATER, HAPPY SAD, MAD DEPRESSED ALL OF THE ABOVE. AND ESPECIALY BORED. THIS IS MAKING ME NUTS.
I WONT BUY CLOTHES BC I WANT TO LOSE THE WEIGHT. BUT THEN I HAVE NOTHING TO WEAR. AND I AM UNCOMFORTABLE ALL THE TIME.
BRAUN IF YOU READ THIS AT ALL I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT I AM THINKING OF YOU AND YOUR FAMILY IN THE LOSS OF YOUR GRANDPA. I WISH YOUR FAMILY WELL.
I AM OFF TO GET THE BRAT. (MY BABYSITTING JOB)
AND THEN THERES MY WEIGHT ISSUE. I KNOW NO ONE LIKES TO HEAR ABOUT THIS TOPIC BUT I KNOW ITS IN ALL OF OUR MINDS. I KEEP BEING HAUNTED BY MY PAST PICTURES AND THINKING WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED. AND THERES ANOTHER REASON FOR BEING MAD, SAD AND DEPRESSED. I LOOK LIKE UTER SHIT. FAT UNGLY BLOB. AND ALL I THINK ABOUT WHEN I SEE PEOPLE IS THAT THEY ARE THINKING HOW FAT I AM. I REALLY WANT TO CHANGE BUT LOOKING AT THE BIG PICTURE I FEEL LIKE THE MOUNTAIN IS TOO BIG TO CLIMB AND THAT ITS HOPLESS. I BOUGHT A WORKOUT BIKE, I HAVE BOOT CAMP, AND A BALL. I DONT USE ANY. (DONT TELL JAKE) I REALLY NEED TO FIND SOMETHING THAT WILL MOTIVATE ME TO DO IT. I FEEL SO MUCH LIKE I CANT. THAT ITS TO HARD. PLUS I AM AN EMOTIONAL EATER, HAPPY SAD, MAD DEPRESSED ALL OF THE ABOVE. AND ESPECIALY BORED. THIS IS MAKING ME NUTS.
I WONT BUY CLOTHES BC I WANT TO LOSE THE WEIGHT. BUT THEN I HAVE NOTHING TO WEAR. AND I AM UNCOMFORTABLE ALL THE TIME.
BRAUN IF YOU READ THIS AT ALL I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT I AM THINKING OF YOU AND YOUR FAMILY IN THE LOSS OF YOUR GRANDPA. I WISH YOUR FAMILY WELL.
I AM OFF TO GET THE BRAT. (MY BABYSITTING JOB)