So Long Dad....
So it's about 3:28 in the morning here and I'm still up and thinking about how my dad is leaving to go back home to Trinidad later today. He's going without my mom and my mother is floundering a bit at that, but she doesn't want to go back. She likes it here in the US. I can't help feeling abandoned even though I'm long past the age of being a child anymore. I'm a young woman who still hasn't quite made her way in the world yet, but I'm still reeling at the shock that my dad plans to leave his immediate family to go back and build some house. Build a house for whom, I wonder? Doesn't he realize his family is here? With us?
I am so fucking disappointed in him it isn't funny. I haven't said anything because I don't feel I should have to reason with him--or beg him--to stay. That should be something that he wants to do. We shouldn't have to force him. And...if he isn't happy here in the US anymore, then who are we to stop him?
But dammit, I would be lying if I didn't say I hated him just a little bit.
I'm not going to get emotional over this. I'm more worried how I'm going to care for my 68 year old mother who is only getting a little social security and I've been laid off from my job. What the fuck am I going to do? How am I going to help her?
Fuck you, Dad. Seriously.
But I would be lying if I didn't say that I still love the insensitive bastard, but I don't think I could forgive him for leaving us--or at least my mom--behind.
Yeah, sorry for being depressing and all.
Also, I don't like what LJ has done with our user profiles. It just looks weird. *sigh*
~Nightshade
I am so fucking disappointed in him it isn't funny. I haven't said anything because I don't feel I should have to reason with him--or beg him--to stay. That should be something that he wants to do. We shouldn't have to force him. And...if he isn't happy here in the US anymore, then who are we to stop him?
But dammit, I would be lying if I didn't say I hated him just a little bit.
I'm not going to get emotional over this. I'm more worried how I'm going to care for my 68 year old mother who is only getting a little social security and I've been laid off from my job. What the fuck am I going to do? How am I going to help her?
Fuck you, Dad. Seriously.
But I would be lying if I didn't say that I still love the insensitive bastard, but I don't think I could forgive him for leaving us--or at least my mom--behind.
Yeah, sorry for being depressing and all.
Also, I don't like what LJ has done with our user profiles. It just looks weird. *sigh*
~Nightshade