oh jesus
Fuck me. Jesus Christ.
It's all my own fault, of course.
I waited too long to get a job. I didn't even consider this until just now.
But I can't get anyone a Christmas present. I just can't. I don't think I can even draw everyone something. I don't know what to draw. I have no money. None. I...there's not enough time. There's no time.
This is so stressful. I started bawling to Jeremy about it as soon as we got home from Ikea a little bit ago. I'm glad everyone else went to get dinner, though, because I do not want my cousin and two best friends to see me crying.
I can't believe myself. I can't stand getting gifts and not having anything in return. It's so amazingly sad.
So if you read this and you got me something and you know what I can do for you that I can make or draw, tell me. I don't know what to make or draw or do for anyone.
All I have is something for my mom that I got ages ago and something for Jeremy that I painted ages ago. I can maybe draw something for a couple of people because I already know what they like to have drawn for them. But most of my friends, I have no idea. No fucking clue.
Editttttt:
Fifi gave me a marvelous idea. Fucking brilliant. I love her.
It's all my own fault, of course.
I waited too long to get a job. I didn't even consider this until just now.
But I can't get anyone a Christmas present. I just can't. I don't think I can even draw everyone something. I don't know what to draw. I have no money. None. I...there's not enough time. There's no time.
This is so stressful. I started bawling to Jeremy about it as soon as we got home from Ikea a little bit ago. I'm glad everyone else went to get dinner, though, because I do not want my cousin and two best friends to see me crying.
I can't believe myself. I can't stand getting gifts and not having anything in return. It's so amazingly sad.
So if you read this and you got me something and you know what I can do for you that I can make or draw, tell me. I don't know what to make or draw or do for anyone.
All I have is something for my mom that I got ages ago and something for Jeremy that I painted ages ago. I can maybe draw something for a couple of people because I already know what they like to have drawn for them. But most of my friends, I have no idea. No fucking clue.
Editttttt:
Fifi gave me a marvelous idea. Fucking brilliant. I love her.