goals for the coming up year
Granted the month of December just started but a lot of pressure is being put on me right now to make a lot of life changing decisions. Now granted I did have time to think about all of these things it does not make things easier. If someone asked me three months ago what I would do when I graduate from college it would be very different than what I would say today. Now this is in some areas is a real sore spot for me. I hurt a good guy, I never meant to, I just did not realize until it was too late that I did not love him. He has had a hard life and deserves better. Sorry for the little side thing...it is just painful to think about. Anyway I am being pulled in a bunch of different directions by a bunch of different people. My dad just cares about money and is convinced that I will default on my student loan....anyone who knows me that I will work three jobs before I let that happen...he just cares about me getting a "real" job. My mom is more supportive and wants me to get a job and do what makes me happy. The kind of pulling is that she keeps hinting about me getting/being back in the dating scene. She thinks I should date an SCA guy. Now I would have no problem with dating an SCA guy but I just don't think I deserve one. I also am afraid of screwing up the friend relationships that I'm trying to make. All that said if I was asked out I would probably say yes (in the unlikely event that this gets read by an SCA guy do not ask me out just because you read this. Only do it if you are actually interested) but i don't see that happening. Although I must say guys that sword fight, dance and sing....wow. Anyway sorry I got off track again. My family thinks I should do something with my degree but that is kinda hard. Everyone seems to have an opinion on what I should do. So now after that long paragraph comes my list of goals for the up coming year. So here it goes. And these are in no particular order.
1. Become an authorized rapier fighter
2. Get my own place or at least a place with a friend
3. get a job at a steakhouse in the kitchen
4. Get my own rapier sword and gear
5. at least try to get farther in the story i've been working on
6. get a job i just like actually
7. to lose the thirty pounds i need to lose
8. to try to follow the advice of my friends (they say i try too hard to get people to like me and that i'm too hard on myself) so i'm going to try (try being key word) to let my guard down a little more and try to relax
I think that that covers the basics for now. I'm sure there is or will be more but those are the ones that come to mind right now. Wow this is the first blog in a while that i just said whatever i want without going back and editing.
1. Become an authorized rapier fighter
2. Get my own place or at least a place with a friend
3. get a job at a steakhouse in the kitchen
4. Get my own rapier sword and gear
5. at least try to get farther in the story i've been working on
6. get a job i just like actually
7. to lose the thirty pounds i need to lose
8. to try to follow the advice of my friends (they say i try too hard to get people to like me and that i'm too hard on myself) so i'm going to try (try being key word) to let my guard down a little more and try to relax
I think that that covers the basics for now. I'm sure there is or will be more but those are the ones that come to mind right now. Wow this is the first blog in a while that i just said whatever i want without going back and editing.