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It's been summer vacation for along time (actually only..6 days?). And oddly enough I had been getting out of the house for a while,- hanging out with Tim constantly. Yesterday I would have chose not to, on account of needing to clean and pack boxes,- which I only got two done. But anyhow, today I was going to see The Omen with Timmy, but he called at 11, and the movie was at 12. I couldn't just shower and snap up that quikckly, well I guess I could've. But I thought, fuck, that's not enough time. Anyhow. I have to work today. Which will be nice, I have NO cash whatsoever.
In the essence of PMS last night I kinda started shit with Zach and I. I was frustrated by the fact that I have to push him to talk about things. Thus leading to an argument about stupid shit- which we both couldn't just drop it. It's pointless to drop shit. So all in all Zach stated that he learned some things about me, that I will push him no matter what and he doesn't like that, and that I don't trust his feelings in me. Because I said some smartass remark like just break up with me if that's how you feel, shit. Meh. That made me feel quite shitty, that it narrowed down on the bad things. Arguments are basically bound to do that, and I think it's a good thing. But that's really not how it should be. I only said that out of the spur of the moment. So I don't push him anymore, I told him if he wants to say whatever he wants, he can say it. The problem with that is, he won't say alot of things if I don't ask. That was just my point, I can't help but push because he won't talk anyways. But it's all cool now I guess.
Crazy dream last night. All I remember is picking Zach and his mom up. Then Zach delaying on asking her if he could come spend the night or something. I remember a random grocery store, I duno it was a hazy dream. I'll just forget it haha.
I have to go on a vacation from the 10-17th with Patrick and his family. I'm partailly looking forward to it to get out and listen to music in the car and be with Patrick. But partially not because that is along time just to be chillin' somewhere without shit to do. But either way, it's a vacation, I'm taking it. I have till the 22ed to pack boxes, which isn't long at all. I should really step up on that, but it's hard to focus.
In the essence of PMS last night I kinda started shit with Zach and I. I was frustrated by the fact that I have to push him to talk about things. Thus leading to an argument about stupid shit- which we both couldn't just drop it. It's pointless to drop shit. So all in all Zach stated that he learned some things about me, that I will push him no matter what and he doesn't like that, and that I don't trust his feelings in me. Because I said some smartass remark like just break up with me if that's how you feel, shit. Meh. That made me feel quite shitty, that it narrowed down on the bad things. Arguments are basically bound to do that, and I think it's a good thing. But that's really not how it should be. I only said that out of the spur of the moment. So I don't push him anymore, I told him if he wants to say whatever he wants, he can say it. The problem with that is, he won't say alot of things if I don't ask. That was just my point, I can't help but push because he won't talk anyways. But it's all cool now I guess.
Crazy dream last night. All I remember is picking Zach and his mom up. Then Zach delaying on asking her if he could come spend the night or something. I remember a random grocery store, I duno it was a hazy dream. I'll just forget it haha.
I have to go on a vacation from the 10-17th with Patrick and his family. I'm partailly looking forward to it to get out and listen to music in the car and be with Patrick. But partially not because that is along time just to be chillin' somewhere without shit to do. But either way, it's a vacation, I'm taking it. I have till the 22ed to pack boxes, which isn't long at all. I should really step up on that, but it's hard to focus.