There is no cure
Here I sit on the floor at this rocky hour, attempting to determine if I truly do have a sleeping disorder or if some mental barrier in my mind permits me from simply fulfilling the lingering goal of actually establishing a relatively sane sleep cycle. Nothing in my future over the next 6 months will be cause to wake up before 1pm unless it is an exception such as an appointment or meeting or plan. School starts at quarter till 2 4 days a week, and work always is in the evenings.
Delayed sleep-phase syndrome (DSPS) is a chronic disorder of sleep timing. People with DSPS tend to fall asleep at very late times, and also have difficulty waking up in time for school or work which begins in the morning. Unlike insomniacs, however, they fall asleep at about the same time every night, no matter what time they go to bed (hence I don't even bother trying to sleep before 3am at the earliest).
Well maybe I'm just looking for excuses but kids, there is something seriously fucked up about my sleep cycle. I mean, I took a strong dosage of melatonin about an hour ago and I feel like I could last hours longer. And it's already almost 4am.
So here I sit on the floor with my laptop, listening to music and wearing my sweatshirt with the hood over my head. I'm a bit cold but I don't want to get up. I know I could fall asleep if I tried at this point, but instead I'm hammering away at the keys for some unknown reason. Where's the motivation here?
Ah well I guess I'll go ahead and give it a try. And I'm getting a headache too...
Delayed sleep-phase syndrome (DSPS) is a chronic disorder of sleep timing. People with DSPS tend to fall asleep at very late times, and also have difficulty waking up in time for school or work which begins in the morning. Unlike insomniacs, however, they fall asleep at about the same time every night, no matter what time they go to bed (hence I don't even bother trying to sleep before 3am at the earliest).
- Sleep-onset and wake times that are intractably later than desired (I don't strive to go to sleep this late)
- Actual sleep-onset times at nearly the same daily clock hour (3-5am are the golden hours)
- Little or no reported difficulty in maintaining sleep once sleep has begun (I can go until late afternoon if I truly don't have a worry or care)
- Extreme difficulty awakening at the desired time in the morning (hence 1:40pm classes to start out the day)
- A relatively severe to absolute inability to advance the sleep phase to earlier hours by enforcing conventional sleep and wake times. (It's been about 2 years since this started)
Well maybe I'm just looking for excuses but kids, there is something seriously fucked up about my sleep cycle. I mean, I took a strong dosage of melatonin about an hour ago and I feel like I could last hours longer. And it's already almost 4am.
So here I sit on the floor with my laptop, listening to music and wearing my sweatshirt with the hood over my head. I'm a bit cold but I don't want to get up. I know I could fall asleep if I tried at this point, but instead I'm hammering away at the keys for some unknown reason. Where's the motivation here?
Ah well I guess I'll go ahead and give it a try. And I'm getting a headache too...