Selfless, Cold and Composed
Selfless, Cold and Composed
Rachel S made it back to umass alive, despite the snow. It was she who informed me Jess had unfriended her on lj because she called her a drama queen. I discovered both Jess and Ginny had also unfriended me on lj. So they now have no right to complain about what I write on *my* lj. If you don't like it, don't read it. Simple as that. And besides, since we're no longer friends why should you care what I think/say? Anyway on with the entry.
Well it finally happened. The group has split. Jess and Ginny ganged up on me when I came back from lunch today. And it had been such a nice morning with both of them gone and the room to myself. So yeah, Jess just went on about how she felt she can't talk to me and how my lj post was horrible. Long story short she doesn't want us to be friends anymore because I've chosen to stick by Rachel and have a life of my own. She didn't respond at all to my comments on how she wouldn't talk to me or why she refused to empathize with Rachel. They then left and I had the room to myself again. I took the time to write her a letter about all my thoughts on the matter. I told her how hurt and upset I have been by her actions. She proceeded to childishly rip it up when she got back and left again. I offered for us to live in peace, not as friends and she chose to not accept. I feel justified in my anger and actions now.
Spent the rest of the day alone in the room doing evil chem OWLs. It took me awhile to calm down but I think I'm better now. Just the whole hypocrisy of it all. Jess was the one championing keeping the group together and working it out and now look what's happened. Oh well, c'est la vie. So yeah, spent the rest of the night doing hw and chatting with a bunch of friends. Talked with my ex-bf Keqing for quite awhile. Somehow I think his renewed interest has something to do with my facebook pic... Talked with Ana who was all happy and supportive. Also talked with Rachel C and filled her in on things and apologized for ditching her. Lastly talked with Erica who proceeded to be her usual self and hit on me. ^^;;; So yeah, sooo much work to do this week aka a chem test on thursday. Somehow I need to survive until the weekend. But I'm sure I will since according to Rachel I'm lacking a "bitch filter". tehehe. Ok, time to do some knitting and relaxing.