im winging this entry...
yeah so im like lost...dont know where to go with this entry cause everything is just big blurr...
a big blurr with no answers..just doubts...just tears..just pain...im really confuzed..im really hurt...and i really have my gaurd up..im willing to risk anything&&everything for love...to love him..to be with him...to make it work...but theres so many excuses? and thats all i keep hearing from him...prove to me we'll work...prove to me it'll be differnt...prove it..prove it all...but im crying...and im the one alone..what makes him think i have the strengh to walk away from everything when im not even sure what he wants...i know he loves me..and thats what keeps me hanging on? ...but like WORDS ARE ONLY WORDS..theres nothing in stone...i need him to tell me whats going on in his mind..cause he seems to change it everyday..and thats the part that makes me wonder...if he loves me so much, why wont he be with me?...love isnt this hard..love shouldnt make me cry...and want to jump off a bridge...were so perfect..and he's been tellin me this for god knows how long..but yet when it all comes down to it...he wants the sercurity that he's not giveing me...i love him more then anything..it would be me && him 100% and it would be different..no one will ever care or love him like i do..i know he's willing to give up everything for me..i know that...but like..he's not proving it to me..he wants me to walk away from everything without even promising anything..god i keep prayin ill wake up one morning and it will all be okay and he'll kiss me awake...i dont know..im so broken..i need him to hold my hand and help me with the bandage...i love him...i pray that love is enough...
your my everything
and theres no way im lettin you go noW*
always & forever, i love you.
a big blurr with no answers..just doubts...just tears..just pain...im really confuzed..im really hurt...and i really have my gaurd up..im willing to risk anything&&everything for love...to love him..to be with him...to make it work...but theres so many excuses? and thats all i keep hearing from him...prove to me we'll work...prove to me it'll be differnt...prove it..prove it all...but im crying...and im the one alone..what makes him think i have the strengh to walk away from everything when im not even sure what he wants...i know he loves me..and thats what keeps me hanging on? ...but like WORDS ARE ONLY WORDS..theres nothing in stone...i need him to tell me whats going on in his mind..cause he seems to change it everyday..and thats the part that makes me wonder...if he loves me so much, why wont he be with me?...love isnt this hard..love shouldnt make me cry...and want to jump off a bridge...were so perfect..and he's been tellin me this for god knows how long..but yet when it all comes down to it...he wants the sercurity that he's not giveing me...i love him more then anything..it would be me && him 100% and it would be different..no one will ever care or love him like i do..i know he's willing to give up everything for me..i know that...but like..he's not proving it to me..he wants me to walk away from everything without even promising anything..god i keep prayin ill wake up one morning and it will all be okay and he'll kiss me awake...i dont know..im so broken..i need him to hold my hand and help me with the bandage...i love him...i pray that love is enough...
your my everything
and theres no way im lettin you go noW*
always & forever, i love you.