I am thirty not ninety. Honestly.
My Mom's wedding is inching ever nearer. Saturday is the day. I have already found the perfect icon of Maryanne for that entry. I know it sounds harsh but the past few days I have been a bit bothered. My Mom wanted us all to wear special dresses for the wedding they didn't have to match but she wanted us to have them. So Mom and my sister went out looking for one for me. That's right I wasn't invited along. I didn't say anything because my Mom's reply would just be that I am too busy or some other what not even though I ask numerous times if I could go so whatever. Well the other day Mom sends me a picture of the dress she wants me to wear if all else fails and they can't find another one...
It's hideous white and covered in the biggest old lady looking flowers I have ever seen. I remember the church women when I was a girl wearing those kinds of dresses. I am talking about the old ones. The one nice thing is it had some bead work on it. So I told Mom I would just find something myself. She replies with " Amanda and Kira are REALLY dressing up... I don't want you to feel left out." Ok. So maybe my upset reaction at this was a bit much but.. I don't know it felt like something was being implied. Like I didn't know how to dress for this kind of function or that I didn't own nice enough clothes. Please don't get me wrong I REALLY AND TRULY did appreciate her offer to buy my dress but...if she didn't want me to feel like I stood out from Amanda and Kira that abomination she got wasn't going to help me feel any better. Needless to say I AM NOT wearing that dress. I have one of my own I will wear that Jared's sister Sissy helped me with. It's brown and cream colored and is more a shirt and skirt than dress but whatever. Mom was insisting on seeing a picture of it I told her I would send one. I might not though. I am wearing my outfit that day if she pitches fit so be it. I know it sounds like I am making a big deal of something petty but yeah it hurt/irritated me. Mainly because if it were Amanda she would never have even tried it.
I won't EVEN go into what was done with my wedding right now. Trust me it's for the best that's an entry for another night.
So then I can't get a hold of Dad for the past few days. I am going to try again tomorrow hopefully I will have some luck. I am still having a bad feeling that all is not well with him.
Kira and Haelee are sick. Haelee has missed six days of school already and it is only three weeks in. The baby Star has pink eye. Things just seem to be piling up. I hope Haelee can be the flower girl like she is supposed to I am sure it will turn out. I'm just so concerned right now. They still haven't gotten their house checked for mold like they were supposed to. I tried bringing it up to Mom and it didn't work. In fact she skipped over it and didn't respond.
If this is the first journal entry of mine you have read I am normally upbeat and optimistic. I don't normally go on and on complaining other than the occasional rant... but sometimes I do and just have to get a bunch of this crap out. Thanks for the understanding :)
In other news I am thinking of changing my journal layout to bats for awhile not only are they a cool animal but it will soon be Halloween that oh so not for diabetics day where people get to dress up for fun. I hope to post more writing and icons soon. Surely there will be more on the wedding as it occurs as well. Thanks so much for reading!
It's hideous white and covered in the biggest old lady looking flowers I have ever seen. I remember the church women when I was a girl wearing those kinds of dresses. I am talking about the old ones. The one nice thing is it had some bead work on it. So I told Mom I would just find something myself. She replies with " Amanda and Kira are REALLY dressing up... I don't want you to feel left out." Ok. So maybe my upset reaction at this was a bit much but.. I don't know it felt like something was being implied. Like I didn't know how to dress for this kind of function or that I didn't own nice enough clothes. Please don't get me wrong I REALLY AND TRULY did appreciate her offer to buy my dress but...if she didn't want me to feel like I stood out from Amanda and Kira that abomination she got wasn't going to help me feel any better. Needless to say I AM NOT wearing that dress. I have one of my own I will wear that Jared's sister Sissy helped me with. It's brown and cream colored and is more a shirt and skirt than dress but whatever. Mom was insisting on seeing a picture of it I told her I would send one. I might not though. I am wearing my outfit that day if she pitches fit so be it. I know it sounds like I am making a big deal of something petty but yeah it hurt/irritated me. Mainly because if it were Amanda she would never have even tried it.
I won't EVEN go into what was done with my wedding right now. Trust me it's for the best that's an entry for another night.
So then I can't get a hold of Dad for the past few days. I am going to try again tomorrow hopefully I will have some luck. I am still having a bad feeling that all is not well with him.
Kira and Haelee are sick. Haelee has missed six days of school already and it is only three weeks in. The baby Star has pink eye. Things just seem to be piling up. I hope Haelee can be the flower girl like she is supposed to I am sure it will turn out. I'm just so concerned right now. They still haven't gotten their house checked for mold like they were supposed to. I tried bringing it up to Mom and it didn't work. In fact she skipped over it and didn't respond.
If this is the first journal entry of mine you have read I am normally upbeat and optimistic. I don't normally go on and on complaining other than the occasional rant... but sometimes I do and just have to get a bunch of this crap out. Thanks for the understanding :)
In other news I am thinking of changing my journal layout to bats for awhile not only are they a cool animal but it will soon be Halloween that oh so not for diabetics day where people get to dress up for fun. I hope to post more writing and icons soon. Surely there will be more on the wedding as it occurs as well. Thanks so much for reading!