stress stress stress stress stress
the Brisbane CBD
getting out of the habit of posting public and friends only entries....opps. actually, lately i've intentionally been holding back on updates in the hopes that i could post some really awesome news. well, i've given up on that and i come to you now with a bit of venting.
to my great surprise and excitement, Daiso (one of my all time favorite stores in the world from Japan) is about to open its first store in Brisbane and its third store in Australia) and i was lucky enough to apply for a job and have had 2 interviews so for, the 2nd one having just happened yesterday. both of the interviews were group interviews and both were the most relaxed interview (esp. group interview) i've ever had.
the first interview went AMAZINGLY. seriously, i've never left an interview feeling so confident with how it went and proud of myself. for the first time ever, i was the one who had the most to say, who had the most job-relevant experience and who was easily rememberable among the group. it helped, of course, that most of the other people being interviewed were recent HS grads and were even less outspoken than me PLUS that the person over the interview (the General Operations Manager? the HR person was there as well) was really nice and good-humored. he was also remarkably upfront about everything... it was like a dream or something. anyway, i left the interview on cloud 9, certain that i'd be called back for a second interview and i was that very day. that was last Thursday.
today's interview was tougher. the caliber of the other people being interviewed was on an entirely different level and there were more people in the group. suddenly the group dynamics were more reflective of the real word in that i was the relatively quiet person again being out shown/outspoken by the more naturally outspoken people. and not just ordinary outspoken people, a room full of them all fighting for airtime. it was hard for everyone to get a word in without stepping on the toes of the previous speaker, and i'm not so sure that i had/found enough opportunity to say enough to stand out among them all... this time it was the GOM(?) and the Store Manager calling the shots and while i know that i made a particularly good impression with the GOM in the 1st interview, i'm not so sure that i did enough to be memorable to the SM and obviously he will have a big final say in who gets hired.... so now i am a lot less confident that i'll be offered a job. :( i will hear back sometime this week...
after the interview i was not especially happy, but i was ok... for the first 30odd minutes. then i inevitably started to replay the interview in my head over & over and then i got depressed.... i really cant stand my fate being up in the air/in someone else's hands like this... this job is so important. so many bills to pay.... behind on rent... i can NOT afford to not get this job... and it would be such a nice job to have.
i will be so utterly crushed if i don't get it.... but there's so much competition and who knows how may positions are actually available.... and then there's the (non-)issue (turned issue) of my visa, which hasn't even been broached yet....
.....trying my best to stay calm.
.... in other news, i've recently joined a couple Meetup groups, one Japanese and two photography related. the photo above was taken during my first photo Meetup where i got attacked by mosquitoes (which i am mildly allergic to) 15 times in the span of 6 minutes resulting in my arms swelling up and stinging like crazy, so i had to leave really early on. boooo...
edit: like whoah.... i'm really sorry for all of the ridiculous typos. i hand wrote this entry on my phone and obviously the handwriting recognition f'ed up some things really badly lol...