>_<;
i`ve been intending to update for the past couple of days, but somehow i never do... meh. going to start off this entry complaining, as i oh so often do.
IT`S FKIN COLD. ;-;
monday the high was 20c/68f...
yesterday the high was 16c/60f...
today the high was 11c/51f...!!!
i`m using my newly bought kotatsu for the first time. >_<; god, i wish it wasnt the same temperature (or colder) inside my apartment as it is outside........ *mumbles*
anyway... i got my test voucher for the JLPT on monday, as anticipated. i will be going to Ehime this year instead of Kagawa (where i went last year). i have yet to go to Ehime so i`m a little excited, although i wont get to enjoy myself much while there. i`ve already booked a hotel room and bought highway bus tickets. 8) i will get to Matsuyama (city where the test will be) two days prior to the test and will horde myself up in my room and review like crazy. note i said "review" and not "cram" as i`m thinking that at this point i shouldnt need to cram anything. D; hoping. i`m going to stay in Matsuyama an extra day after the test just to relax before i have to go back to work the following day.
since this weekend is a 3day weekend and i promised someone i`d visit (even though i really dont want to >_>;), i`ll be going to Tokushima again. i really don`t have anything planned... i am rather broke right now. >_>; i think i will limit myself to relaxing and only doing things that are free aside from transportation fees. should study/review too... >_<;
*sigh* x10
recently i found out about a free workshop thing for JETs who are interested in possibly teaching Japanese in the future and so i`ve been trying to weigh whether or not i would be interested in such a job/career. i`d really like to sit in on the workshop just to listen in on it because i`m sure it`ll be really interesting, but since acceptance is limited, i dont have such leisure... >.>
watching the JTEs (Japanese teachers of English) that i work with do their thing everyday, i can`t help but flinch at the thought that i`d be putting myself in a similar situation to theirs by attempting to teach a language that isnt even my "second mother tongue", let alone my native language. i`d have endless paranoia: maybe i`m teaching something that`s incorrect? did i write that correctly? i might have missed a stroke... what if a student asks me a question that i dont have an answer to?-- i have a serious lack of self-confidence as it is, there`s no way i could deal with such stress while teaching all the time. >_<; no matter how many years i study Japanese, no matter how long i live in Japan, i`d never feel confident enough in my Japanese ability to feel alright teaching it to others...
and yet, i feel like getting into teaching is the easiest, quickest and most secure career i could go into right now, which doesnt necessarily make it the best career to get into, of course... since teaching Japanese isnt an option, that only leaves teaching ESL or EFL (because i`d fail at teaching anything else). however, what i want most in a job is to be able to utilize Japanese, not just English, and if i leave Japan and teach ESL/EFL that will never happen. >_<;
...but i have trouble thinking of any other field i`d want to go into that utilizes Japanese. :/ of course there`s translation, interpretation and international business relations stuff, but the latter i have very little interest in. >_>; i hate business/economics stuff... and i hate sales...
*sigh* it sucks working really hard to attain something without even knowing what you want to do once you attain it. :/
IT`S FKIN COLD. ;-;
monday the high was 20c/68f...
yesterday the high was 16c/60f...
today the high was 11c/51f...!!!
i`m using my newly bought kotatsu for the first time. >_<; god, i wish it wasnt the same temperature (or colder) inside my apartment as it is outside........ *mumbles*
anyway... i got my test voucher for the JLPT on monday, as anticipated. i will be going to Ehime this year instead of Kagawa (where i went last year). i have yet to go to Ehime so i`m a little excited, although i wont get to enjoy myself much while there. i`ve already booked a hotel room and bought highway bus tickets. 8) i will get to Matsuyama (city where the test will be) two days prior to the test and will horde myself up in my room and review like crazy. note i said "review" and not "cram" as i`m thinking that at this point i shouldnt need to cram anything. D; hoping. i`m going to stay in Matsuyama an extra day after the test just to relax before i have to go back to work the following day.
since this weekend is a 3day weekend and i promised someone i`d visit (even though i really dont want to >_>;), i`ll be going to Tokushima again. i really don`t have anything planned... i am rather broke right now. >_>; i think i will limit myself to relaxing and only doing things that are free aside from transportation fees. should study/review too... >_<;
*sigh* x10
recently i found out about a free workshop thing for JETs who are interested in possibly teaching Japanese in the future and so i`ve been trying to weigh whether or not i would be interested in such a job/career. i`d really like to sit in on the workshop just to listen in on it because i`m sure it`ll be really interesting, but since acceptance is limited, i dont have such leisure... >.>
watching the JTEs (Japanese teachers of English) that i work with do their thing everyday, i can`t help but flinch at the thought that i`d be putting myself in a similar situation to theirs by attempting to teach a language that isnt even my "second mother tongue", let alone my native language. i`d have endless paranoia: maybe i`m teaching something that`s incorrect? did i write that correctly? i might have missed a stroke... what if a student asks me a question that i dont have an answer to?-- i have a serious lack of self-confidence as it is, there`s no way i could deal with such stress while teaching all the time. >_<; no matter how many years i study Japanese, no matter how long i live in Japan, i`d never feel confident enough in my Japanese ability to feel alright teaching it to others...
and yet, i feel like getting into teaching is the easiest, quickest and most secure career i could go into right now, which doesnt necessarily make it the best career to get into, of course... since teaching Japanese isnt an option, that only leaves teaching ESL or EFL (because i`d fail at teaching anything else). however, what i want most in a job is to be able to utilize Japanese, not just English, and if i leave Japan and teach ESL/EFL that will never happen. >_<;
...but i have trouble thinking of any other field i`d want to go into that utilizes Japanese. :/ of course there`s translation, interpretation and international business relations stuff, but the latter i have very little interest in. >_>; i hate business/economics stuff... and i hate sales...
*sigh* it sucks working really hard to attain something without even knowing what you want to do once you attain it. :/