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Well, Teddy is dating Megan. I'm happy for him. And I'm not even hurt. He's happy and he has found someone, even if I think she's a bit young. But oh well.
I've decided to go single for a while. Chris and I have been flirting with each other for like a day or so. -Shrugs- It's just a friend thing though. I don't think we'll get together...at least not for a long time. He's got basic and all that plus Trista. Rob and I (Chris's friend) have a lot in common and he's sweet...but he's just not the kinda person I want to be with. Ibn is a sweetheart and he's cute and so on and so forth. But he's got a girlfriend...well not really a girlfriend but a girl that he wants to date, and I don't think he and I would be good as a couple. Trey...mmm...what is there to say about Trey. He's an angel thats for sure. Doesn't give a 'hoot" (don't ask...something Ibn said that I thought was cute)...anyways...Doesn't give a "hoot" what I look like. Loves everything about me...even the bad -Grin-. But I just don't know about him. Jesus...he and I have done the "on and off" thing like...8 fucking times man.
But anyways. I'm hoping to get on a bus to go home to Alexandria for a while Monday morning. I'll be staying for a week if Chris goes with me...if he doesn't then I'll be staying for like 3 weeks. Need to get away...get some air to clear my head...My home's air. Lol. But anyways...yea...I'll be with my sister and Moma C and Papa. I'll get to see Trey again...hopefully come to some terms with this constant tention between me and him since Teddy and I split. I don't think he's felt it but I certainly have.
I was thinking about moving back home for a while...maybe to finish High School. Hopefully get back into my roots. I'm still considering it. I mean seriously...there's really nothing left for me in Slidell. My mom is finally settled and happy so my work is done there. The schools really do suck here...I miss ASH. The faculty in these schools here suck major blue balled monkey assness. I dunno...Slidell just sucks. I love all of my friends but I just can't take it anymore. Besides I don't have that many friends here...I can practically count them on all my fingers and maybe two or three of my toes. -Grin- That and I just miss home. It's time I went home.
(Random thought) I've always wanted kids...but I once said that any kids I would have, would have been Teddy's. Mostly because I can't see myself physically with anyone but him. But thats because I've already been with him...and I don't regret it...but if I could go back I wouldn't do it again. So yea...maybe I'll adopt and move in somewhere with a gay couple so they could be the "father figures." -Shrugs- Oh well.
*Note for Teddy if he reads this* No, I didn't read the Vampire Armand. I was giving that back to you...despite you telling me to keep it. I've never been a big fan of Anne Rice anyways.