Sudden Realizations, Gradual Frustrations
So I just realized I can graduate within 3 semesters if I work my butt off. I'm floored by this sudden discovery. As much as I complain about being in school, I haven't really thought about what I want to do once I'm out of it. Tackling 18 credits a semester is hard enough as it is, add to the fact that they are 300-400 level courses and I have quite the challenge. I feel an overwhelming sadness at the thought of moving on and (hopefully) moving up.
I just needed to get this off my chest. I have to start thinking about grad school and if I want to do it or not. If so, what am I going to go for and what am I going to do with it? So many responsibilities and obligations. Hell, I might move to Richmond after I graduate. I have no idea what is in store for me. I'm scared. I'm scared to explore my faith, I'm scared of what is beyond the classrooms of Fayette, and I'm afraid of failing. I want to write, to be successful, to make a name for myself. I don't think that will ever happen. I can try to make the best of what I have and of what is given to me. I am blessed, that I know for sure.
I still can't accept the fact that I can finish my degree in three semesters. It has already been 5, so its not really that much of a surprise but I guess I just lost track of time. I have attended Penn State for 2 1/2 years and I can finish in another 1 1/2. I'm right on schedule if I play my cards right. I just don't have the luxury of getting lazy, not like I did before, but that never stopped me. I'm nervous. What is out there for me? I won't know until I'm there.
I just needed to get this off my chest. I have to start thinking about grad school and if I want to do it or not. If so, what am I going to go for and what am I going to do with it? So many responsibilities and obligations. Hell, I might move to Richmond after I graduate. I have no idea what is in store for me. I'm scared. I'm scared to explore my faith, I'm scared of what is beyond the classrooms of Fayette, and I'm afraid of failing. I want to write, to be successful, to make a name for myself. I don't think that will ever happen. I can try to make the best of what I have and of what is given to me. I am blessed, that I know for sure.
I still can't accept the fact that I can finish my degree in three semesters. It has already been 5, so its not really that much of a surprise but I guess I just lost track of time. I have attended Penn State for 2 1/2 years and I can finish in another 1 1/2. I'm right on schedule if I play my cards right. I just don't have the luxury of getting lazy, not like I did before, but that never stopped me. I'm nervous. What is out there for me? I won't know until I'm there.