not worthy

[nicolioshmolio]

I'm horrible with this live journal stuff, just thought i'd share. Haven't updated in a very long time, problee not since life was GREAT. Things are lookin up tho, gettin over old shit and starting new. The people that i hang out with always make me happy, and you can't ask for anything more. The school year is ending way too fast. I'm so not ready to be a senior next year and have all the people that i have shared all 3 years of high school leave. No way will anything ever be the same. Everyone is leaving all different ways and its hella depressing, i can't even imagine how im going to do it next year. These last few weeks ive been hella slacking i haven't done jack shit in any of my classes, half the time im not even there. I gotta stick it through these last few days tho...finals left and right. i don't know how im going to handle a chem final and a trig final all the same week, my mind is on total overload. It's my junior year and im already wanting to leave school..nope still got another year :( i wanna stay with everyone and see them everyday and all but the work is gonna be a bitch with pre-cal and quest and all that. other people have done it so hopefully i can handle it too. I took french my freshman year and here i am as a senior going into french 2..that isn't going to work out all that well lol. Change of thought:I've been surrounded by people lately and yet i still feel so alone. This past weekend i realized how alone i really am. I haven't had a boyfriend since what 8th grade? and thats all little kid stuff where is was huge to hug someone you know? What i would give to have a relationship..at least one high school relationship. My 2 closest friends both have boyfriends and im left out of the 3 of us doin my own little thing and its gettin old...i just need to start lookin and find someone already..

well enough of my shit..maybe ill start keepin up on this and actually put the link in my info?? haha