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I'm hurting really ad right now because almost everyone i talk to about ian and me breaking up..they have to say something bad about him and its really hurting my feelings because i dont feel that way about him at all nor will i ever. He treated me so well when we were going out..even if it was all one big lie. It was a sweet lie for awhile. I mean..i really got taken in with it. I dont believe that it was a lie though. I think hes just really confused about his feelings because hes never had a gf for more than 1 month. He doesnt know how relationships go past that and i completely understand. I'm just guessing thats how he is feeling. I feel so hurt though still because i LOVED him. I still do. This hurts really bad..i wish there was something i could do to fix all of this but there isnt so i just sit here helpless crying my eyes out. All these thoughts are running throuh my head...all these things i would love to say to him right now..good things..not bad. Love hurts really bad. I don't recommend it to anyone though til you get older. I wish i was younger again so i wouldnt know what heart break was. I'd be carefree...life goes on..and i guess i'll just have to accept it as hard as it will be to..