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[nicole345]

It's weird to think that a month ago today I was just a carefree high school grad going to her college orientation just like everyone else. I had no real responsibility just a summer job and spending as much time with my friends until we all went our seperate ways. I had no idea what was in store for me. Flash forward to today, I'm no longer so carefree, it seems like in the blink of an eye I have been forced to grow up, to become responsible, and to watch as all of my friends go off to college as I stay behind to work my every waking moment. This isn't how things were supposed to be, I don't feel like I can really complain because no offense but I don't really know who could understand all that has happened and why. I've done my best to cope with the situation and all of the decisions that have resulted from it. I will be withdrawing from the University of Vermont and taking a year off, I have already been enrolled at the University of Massachusetts, Amherst for the fall semester of 2007. I feel like I have changed again, I don't know what it is, and whether or not I like it, I guess I'll just have to try it out for a while, give it a chance. I want my life to have a routine, I want to know when I will work, when I'll have a day to myself, whether or not I'll take some classes, how I will pay my bills, and save for college, because those two things have become my reality in the past month. I now have a credit card and a car payment, I also have to save for college because well ya. I don't want sympathy or anyone to think I'm feeling sorry for myself I just needed to get this out, to type it out, because by keeping it all in I don't feel I'm truely dealing with it in the way I should.

ps. I miss Jocelyn, I think she disappeared, anyone know where she's hiding? lol
pps. amanda um ya the other night was hilarious, gt's!

now to watch some friends...<3 nicole