Haven't written in awhile,but have the need to write :)
As I don't have a lot of friends on LJ yet, I would like to obtain some. My very close friend erin introduced me to Live Journal about a year ago. Hope she doesn't mind...but her user name is DistortedPsyche and she is the most kindest, caring, loving person I have known over the years and I love her dearly.
I have been having a rough time with my new life I am about to create. I have been dating jay over a period of 6 months and we made it exclusive over my last visit and I haven't ever been happier. He knows about my illnesses, my meds, my need for the hospital when I flip out and he totally supports me. I will be moving on January 19th and jenn--my best friend and Jay will be coming on the 18th--hopefully to help me load up the uhaul truck or trailor...the trailor is much cheaper. My god sons who I have helped to grow up correctly over the last 4 years have been taken away from me. Because my roommate/friend for the past 4 years...is pissed that I'm leaving. But for the first time in a long time, I am doing something that will give me a sense of security and safety and I am doing something for myself for the first time that will make me happier then I think I have ever been. Many people disagree with my move, but those who are my true friends are supporting me. They see me happy when I talk about this....and thats what they want for me. I will be leaving family, friends, a job, and everything that is familiar. But, I am not happy here and I am happy there and for the first time I have realized that this is something I have to do. This will be the hardest thing I have ever done and I am terrified but in my heart I feel that Jay is good for me and I need good things in my life. Those of you that don't understand....well I can't help that. Those of you who are my friends....like jenn, jay,erin, melissa, gutsy, ryan, natalie, brooke, kirk....u all only wish me happiness and love. And that means the world to me. They only want what is good for me. And I appreciate that more then anything. U all are friends for life. And I love you all so much. Thats all for now because I am tired.
I have been having a rough time with my new life I am about to create. I have been dating jay over a period of 6 months and we made it exclusive over my last visit and I haven't ever been happier. He knows about my illnesses, my meds, my need for the hospital when I flip out and he totally supports me. I will be moving on January 19th and jenn--my best friend and Jay will be coming on the 18th--hopefully to help me load up the uhaul truck or trailor...the trailor is much cheaper. My god sons who I have helped to grow up correctly over the last 4 years have been taken away from me. Because my roommate/friend for the past 4 years...is pissed that I'm leaving. But for the first time in a long time, I am doing something that will give me a sense of security and safety and I am doing something for myself for the first time that will make me happier then I think I have ever been. Many people disagree with my move, but those who are my true friends are supporting me. They see me happy when I talk about this....and thats what they want for me. I will be leaving family, friends, a job, and everything that is familiar. But, I am not happy here and I am happy there and for the first time I have realized that this is something I have to do. This will be the hardest thing I have ever done and I am terrified but in my heart I feel that Jay is good for me and I need good things in my life. Those of you that don't understand....well I can't help that. Those of you who are my friends....like jenn, jay,erin, melissa, gutsy, ryan, natalie, brooke, kirk....u all only wish me happiness and love. And that means the world to me. They only want what is good for me. And I appreciate that more then anything. U all are friends for life. And I love you all so much. Thats all for now because I am tired.