What's his type? Wilting flower? Bright and bubbly? Or smoldering temptress?
tonight is going to be so much fun and I can't wait. Shannon and I are going out dancing and it has been so long since I have been out, so why not take advantage of not coming home smelling like pizza and go out with my bestest. I am pumped.
Unfortunately though, I won't get to hang out with Andy but it's ok I can see him another day. He's so fun. He came over last night after he got out of class and hung out for a few hours with me and Shan. We played Scene It! and he got to experience Shannon's "You are a winner dance" and got to see me acting like a fool for the first time. So we all had a lot of fun.
Class was fine today for the most part. I left my personality psych class pretty early just because I was really upset and hurt. Someone said some really hurtful things to me and well maybe they weren't meant to be hurtful but it was and I ended up leaving class in tears. So I kind of felt like hell. I'm over it though. It's his opinion of me now which sucks because I valued his opinion so much and I still do just because he was such a good friend to me. I wish things would have ended a little better. At least on better terms but it's ok. Hopefully one day we will be able to hang out and be friends again but we shall see as time goes on. I'm not going to push anything right now. When he is ready he will contact me.
Work is going well. I mean how can it not go well. I guess I am happy with where I am at in my life. I mean I have great friends and a good job and fun classes so yea it's all going well. And I'm single. What more can a single girl ask for other than amazing friends to be there for her and have fun with.
Someone told me that I don't cope with my problems in a healthy way. I tend to internalize things which isn't good but ya know I always write when I am upset and it makes me feel better seeing my thoughts and feelings on paper. Not everyone copes with things the same way, I just tend to deal with them on a lower level. A more private level than actually going and talking to a person. I dunno.
I'm a little scatterbrained right now so please bare with me for a little bit with my jumping from subject to subject. My mom told me that my sister's best friend's parents are getting a divorce and her friend is moving to another school about a half an hour away. That really sucks for Chrissy and for her friend because they are going to be in high school next year and that has to be tough starting high school in a new school. I never really had to do that considering I went to Maplewood all my life, except for 3 months my senior year but that wasn't hard for me because I get a long with people very well and tend to make friends rather easily. Plus Chrissy's friend was cutting herself last year and now I am terrified for this poor girls health and mental state. But who know's she might do very well considering her mom won't be around and the woman is crazy. Like seriously crazy. Hopefully all works out for the girl. I wish her the best of luck and hope she does better there than she did at Maplewood. And hopefully her and Chrissy remain friends.
So you know when someone kisses you and your heart just stops and you can't wait to start kissing them again. Well that feeling definitley hit me last night. Or every time they kiss you it feels like the first kiss. Yea that is where I am at right now and I feels awesome. I haven't had that feeling since Scottie. And that relationship did last a long time unfortunately he had to go over seas and it kind of fell apart from there. But it's ok. But every time Andy has kissed me it felt like that very first kiss and well last time I had that feeling it worked. So I am wondering if I do start dating him seriously that maybe it will work. I am not going to rush things or jump into another relationship but that thought is just in the back of my head. And there is the fact that whenever I get a text from him saying something random it makes me smile like a 2 year old. It's pretty cool. He doesn't want to jump into anything either which is cool. And something I respect about him. I just hope everything works out to benefit both of us. He seems like a nice guy but I need to get to know him a lot better before anything happens. He is just a huge goofball like me so that works out well too. The things a girl dreams about.
Unfortunately though, I won't get to hang out with Andy but it's ok I can see him another day. He's so fun. He came over last night after he got out of class and hung out for a few hours with me and Shan. We played Scene It! and he got to experience Shannon's "You are a winner dance" and got to see me acting like a fool for the first time. So we all had a lot of fun.
Class was fine today for the most part. I left my personality psych class pretty early just because I was really upset and hurt. Someone said some really hurtful things to me and well maybe they weren't meant to be hurtful but it was and I ended up leaving class in tears. So I kind of felt like hell. I'm over it though. It's his opinion of me now which sucks because I valued his opinion so much and I still do just because he was such a good friend to me. I wish things would have ended a little better. At least on better terms but it's ok. Hopefully one day we will be able to hang out and be friends again but we shall see as time goes on. I'm not going to push anything right now. When he is ready he will contact me.
Work is going well. I mean how can it not go well. I guess I am happy with where I am at in my life. I mean I have great friends and a good job and fun classes so yea it's all going well. And I'm single. What more can a single girl ask for other than amazing friends to be there for her and have fun with.
Someone told me that I don't cope with my problems in a healthy way. I tend to internalize things which isn't good but ya know I always write when I am upset and it makes me feel better seeing my thoughts and feelings on paper. Not everyone copes with things the same way, I just tend to deal with them on a lower level. A more private level than actually going and talking to a person. I dunno.
I'm a little scatterbrained right now so please bare with me for a little bit with my jumping from subject to subject. My mom told me that my sister's best friend's parents are getting a divorce and her friend is moving to another school about a half an hour away. That really sucks for Chrissy and for her friend because they are going to be in high school next year and that has to be tough starting high school in a new school. I never really had to do that considering I went to Maplewood all my life, except for 3 months my senior year but that wasn't hard for me because I get a long with people very well and tend to make friends rather easily. Plus Chrissy's friend was cutting herself last year and now I am terrified for this poor girls health and mental state. But who know's she might do very well considering her mom won't be around and the woman is crazy. Like seriously crazy. Hopefully all works out for the girl. I wish her the best of luck and hope she does better there than she did at Maplewood. And hopefully her and Chrissy remain friends.
So you know when someone kisses you and your heart just stops and you can't wait to start kissing them again. Well that feeling definitley hit me last night. Or every time they kiss you it feels like the first kiss. Yea that is where I am at right now and I feels awesome. I haven't had that feeling since Scottie. And that relationship did last a long time unfortunately he had to go over seas and it kind of fell apart from there. But it's ok. But every time Andy has kissed me it felt like that very first kiss and well last time I had that feeling it worked. So I am wondering if I do start dating him seriously that maybe it will work. I am not going to rush things or jump into another relationship but that thought is just in the back of my head. And there is the fact that whenever I get a text from him saying something random it makes me smile like a 2 year old. It's pretty cool. He doesn't want to jump into anything either which is cool. And something I respect about him. I just hope everything works out to benefit both of us. He seems like a nice guy but I need to get to know him a lot better before anything happens. He is just a huge goofball like me so that works out well too. The things a girl dreams about.